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Thursday, April 30, 2009

Death strikes hard

Yes, it does. I can vouch for that. The pain of a dear family member passing is not, and I repeat, not a joyful happening.

Yet, today morning, on the 30th of April 2009 at 3:30 a.m. on the dot, death greets us. The grim reaper welcomes yet another soul into a utopia as known as the Afterworld. 

We, our family, and other relatives and friends, can only pray that she will reach the gates of Heaven and forever know peace. As the "Am Mi Ta Pha" song plays melodiously beside the casket placed in the hall of our family walls, my grandmother lays, peaceful and beautiful, the make-up taking 30 years off her real age, 82. 

Death turned our home into a convalescent home for recovering relatives from the death of our dearly beloved.

Many have come to know of this passing that even the directors from the music company my dad works for sent their condolences and flowers as a sign of their grief and sympathy, otherwise empathy.

Her dead body lays in the coffin and her face shows sign of final peace. I know by that look, that wherever she is, she is excited, and does not regret one thing in her life. Her beautiful face shines and her purple eye shadow glittered. Her clothes were emperor-like, with an umbrella to signify that calmness and tranquility has reached her.

After she is cremated, her ashes shall be taken and placed at the Nilai Memorial Centre, beside my grandfather. They shall be together again, and I hope this time, they won't fight like they used to.

Our family has made many wishings for her, one of them includes hoping she'll find the bastard who placed her in that situation. The idiot and insufferable, not-worthy-of-living Ravendran. Yes, I say his name, the bastard who did this to our grandmother. I wished for her to make him suffer, suffer the pain that she had to go through before she finally reached her end. The only family left in hers is her sister, who, ironically, is older than her.

All that are reading my blog right this moment, leave a comment on my Cbox and I shall welcome you to my house either today, tomorrow or the day after. My grandmother shall be cremated at Cheras DBKL Crematorium.

~Creatress~

Monday, April 27, 2009

Yikers!!

Dang!!

Convo

Never give out your password or credit card number in an instant message conversation.

~CrAzY~ says:
LOUISA!!!
~CrAzY~ says:
what happened in class?
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
? nothing much, why?
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
i trick diana twice after drawing for her
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
should've seen her reaction
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
priceless
~CrAzY~ says:
so... nobody effed anybody?
~CrAzY~ says:
lol
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
-_- only you do that, dear
~CrAzY~ says:
did anybody sit at my placE?
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
me
~CrAzY~ says:
WTF
~CrAzY~ says:
YES!!!
~CrAzY~ says:
SWEET REVENGE!!!!
~CrAzY~ says:
LOL
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
why??
~CrAzY~ says:
poor effing jo yee was all ALONE!!!
~CrAzY~ says:
YES@@@
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
no la, mei shuen leh?
~CrAzY~ says:
SWEET REVENGE!!!
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
sheesh
~CrAzY~ says:
Mei shuen dont care abt her wan
~CrAzY~ says:
LOL
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
ya, sindu stole her after that anyway
~CrAzY~ says:
YES!!!
~CrAzY~ says:
EVEN SWEETER REVENGE!!!
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
haha
~CrAzY~ says:
OH>>> LIFE IS SWEET SOMETIMES!
~CrAzY~ says:
wohoo!!!
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
haha
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
why didnt you come to school today?
~CrAzY~ says:
OVERSLEPT
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
was gonna give you your drawing
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
-_-
~CrAzY~ says:
DIDNT HEAR THE ALARM
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
so wait la for tomorrow
~CrAzY~ says:
I KNOW!!!!
~CrAzY~ says:
eff!!
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
haha
~CrAzY~ says:
LIFE IS NOT SWEET SOMETIMES
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
diana says the drawings' are really nice
~CrAzY~ says:
MUAHAHAHHAA
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
of course la, i draw ma
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
perasan
~CrAzY~ says:
SWEET REVENGFE!!!
~CrAzY~ says:
LOL
~CrAzY~ says:
BUT IT IS TRUE
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
aww... that
~CrAzY~ says:
YOUR DRAWINGS ARE NICE
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
is s
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
sweet*
~CrAzY~ says:
BUT NOT THAT NICE
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:

~CrAzY~ says:
LOL
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
i hate you
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
i'll tear the paper up
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
haha
~CrAzY~ says:
!!! I MEANT AS THE MONA LISA!
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
PADAN MUKA
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
-_-
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
stupid
~CrAzY~ says:
LIKE PICASSO OR SOMETHING!!!
~CrAzY~ says:
aaargh@
~CrAzY~ says:
LOL
~CrAzY~ says:
I SHOULD REALLY STOP THE CAPITAL LETTERS
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
you think??
~CrAzY~ says:
OH... WELL...
~CrAzY~ says:
muaHAhahahaHAHAHAHHAHAAHHA!
~CrAzY~ says:
LIFE IS SO HOT!
~CrAzY~ says:
AND SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET
~CrAzY~ says:
LOL
~CrAzY~ says:
GTG
~CrAzY~ says:
BB
~CrAzY~ says:
MUAKS!
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
byebye
~CrAzY~ says:
LOL
~CrAzY~ says:
HAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAH
~CrAzY~ says:
I FEEL LIKE SQUISHING AT RIPPING AND SLASHING AND... AND... AND...
~CrAzY~ says:
LOL
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
-_-
~CrAzY~ says:
I KNOW!~
~CrAzY~ says:
TOMORROW!~
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
arent you supposed to go now?
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
byebye
~CrAzY~ says:
YOU BRING KNIFE
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
-_-
~CrAzY~ says:
I'LL BRING PARANG
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
weirdo
~CrAzY~ says:
AND WE'LLL SLASH HER TO BITS!!!
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
haha
~CrAzY~ says:
MUAHAHAHAHAAHAH!~
~CrAzY~ says:
LOL...
~CrAzY~ says:
YOU'RE NOT GONNA PUT THIS ON YOUR BLOG RIGHT?
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
haha
~CrAzY~ says:
RIGHT?
~CrAzY~ says:
EIGHT?>??
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
maybe
~CrAzY~ says:
*RIGHT???
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:

~CrAzY~ says:
RIGHT EIGHT???
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
yala
~CrAzY~ says:
*RIGHT?>?
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
sheesh
~CrAzY~ says:
ALA
~CrAzY~ says:
PUT LA
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
-_-
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
pfft
~CrAzY~ says:
OK
~CrAzY~ says:
YOU GO PUT NOW YA!
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
-_-
*Sen no yoru wo koete* says:
stupid feller
~CrAzY~ says:
YAY!!!
~CrAzY~ says:
HEHEEHEH


Stupid, right? :P

Monday...

Grr, today was some stupid majlis thingymabob to celebrate the "naik-pangkat"-ing of one of our teachers. Actually, when all the kompang music started, I was hoping Puan K was retiring. I want that bloody bitch to get out of our school la. Stupid you know? Suddenly, we have to bayar yuran!

How much?

RM121!!

Stupid right? They even included SANITEX, which is the woman's sanitary pad. Hello?? I don't even USE them! Better for Danya, hers hasn't even arrived yet!

Anyway, we also need to pay for our school magazine, okay? Oi, if I knew we had to pay, I wouldn't even want the school magazine. I could lend my friend's one or something, but I wouldn't go as far as wanting to PAY to see the magazine.

Sheesh, that woman's brain is in her ass I tell you! She was just crapping today on stage about all that yuran stuff and why we need to pay. What really irks me is, she said we could no longer collect money for class funds and everything if so much as ONE person says she/he doesn't wanna pay.

So if I say I don't wanna pay this stupid yuran thing, everyone no need to pay la!

Yeesh, if there was a Hotline to Hell, like... a real one, I would definitely send her there.

Bloody bitch

Ciao!!

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Music Class...

You know, I don't even think I'm ready for my music exam, you know? I'm taking my Yamaha exams this year. Well, next month, actually, and I feel as if everything's clogged up inside me!!

AHHH!!!

Anyway, my sister's suddenly obsessed over ShinHwa for some unethical reason. She's downloaded "How do I say?", "Falling in Love", "Once in a lifetime", "You're my everything", "Desinty of Love", "Pray for You" and "2gether 4ever."

I don't really like ShinHwa, so I don't exactly listen to their songs.

I'm still working on Unwanted Desire, the sequel to Undefined Destiny. I'm hoping to finish it by Danya's 14th birthday. I hope I can finish it on time this year. I mean, last year, it took me from her birthday to this year's first day of school to finally give it to her. I'm like... Dang...

Oh well, I'm busy watching Kodomo no Omocha right now. Lots of twists and turns but i like the show anyway. I don't exactly like the girl's voice because it's squeaky. :P

I HATE THE LEAD GUY!!!! HE'S SO BLOODY INDECISIVE!!! YOU LIKE ONE GIRL THEN JUST STICK TO HER LAA!!!! WHY SO ANNOYING WAN??!!!!!!!!

BUGGER, YOU STUPID FUKA, WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LEAVE AKITO ALONE!!!!! YOU BLOODY INSOLENT BIATCH!!! I HATE YOU!!! IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT HIS MIND IS ALL MIXED UP!! GET OUT OF HIS LIFE! IT'S OBVIOUS SANA WILL GET HIM IN THE END!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Okay, I'm alright now. :P

Oh, and guess what? My sister bought a new Japanese movie yesterday. It's called Koizora. According to her, it's quite famous, but I hate the guy acting inside. He's so ugly. They couldn't have gotten a better guy with bleached hair to play the part? It was so annoying! The girl looked alright, and the partner pulak so ugly.

We should've bought "1 Litre of Tears".

Ciao!!

Found more new songs!!

One is called "Feels like Home" by Josh Kelley and Melissa Etheridge. It's from Brother Bear 2 and I really really like it. Also, there are other songs I like called "It will be me" and "Welcome to This Day" both by Melissa Etheridge. Both also from Brother Bear 2. There's another Japanese song called "Naturally" by Ayumi Hamasaki from Bleach.

Apart from that, nope, no more songs.

Ugh, I've got music class today, which involves more work. I'm so buffed from yesterday and everything... Grr... The day hasn't passed enough for me to post about anything worth yet. So Ciao!

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Tuition...

The English tuition was better than last week, according to my brother. Our teacher had not come, so he was substituted by his wife, who wasn't very good at teaching English.

The lesson was alright. I didn't go last week because I had to attend the IU Day of my school. Sean didn't come today either because he had some scout thingymabob. That would actually be good news, if I weren't seeing him at 4:45 again.

To my immense surprise, I met some guys I've seen from Sean's birthday party. One guy, Lee, had really good English. I was surprised because he looked like the "I don't know peanuts about English because I'm Chinese" kind. Some answers he knew, but overall there was only one question to which he got wrong. I got two mistakes.

Grr...

Then again, I don't know if he didn't know answers to the rest. :P His voice, though, is quite nice. It's really low and kind of reminds me of Micky. ^ ^

Till after theory class, ciao!

Today...

Well, I've got to go for tuition at 12:30 then another one at 4:45. -_- One's for English and the other's for Theory. Both of them, I'm attending with that sad excuse of a boy, Sean. Seriously, why did he have to exist anyway??

Okay, calm down. Not bad, I woke up at 9 o'clock today but only came down at 10 because I slept some more. :P Then I came straight down to switch the computer on and watch Kodomo no Omocha. I'm really hoping Lina has this anime and brings it back because I think I'm starting to like this anime ^ ^

The day hasn't passed much for me to post about anything, but you can bet I'll be blogging again after class today!

Until then, Ciao!!

Friday, April 24, 2009

Sheesh

Honestly, the sooner my sister leaves, the more I can use the Mac. Sheesh. She's getting her own, isn't she? Why does she have to use this as much as she's gonna use her own when she goes away?

Grr...

Anyway, it was like this, I came back from school today and already my sister was on the computer. Fine, I thought, let her use it first. Then, I went to tuition and came back, she was still on the computer. I told her I wanted to use it and she was like "No, you can't. I'm using it."

"You already used it the whole day!"

"WHO SAY?"

"Eh, come back from school already you were using. Until NOW also you still using!"

"Oi, I send you and your koko to tuition okay?! I just switched it on! You want to use then you wait!"

Sheesh. That was at 8 o'clock. Then came 9 o'clock, she was still watching the stupid X-Man show. Dah la it's not DBSK, it's ShinHwa. SOOOOOO enthusiastic pulak! << what's with the BM???

Anyway, at TEN o'clock, when my PARENTS come home, THEN she gives me the computer! Annoying right??? Sheesh. She gets to watch whatever shit she wants and I can't! GRRR!!!

Haiz... Okay, I'm composed. Now, to start with what happened today. Danya and I were talking about Undefined Destiny, the story I wrote for her birthday present. I asked her, "Hey, what do you think of Denka?"

"Yeah, I like her."

I paused for a moment, then asked again, "So if you were reading this for the first time and you didn't know who they were in real life?"

"Oh I hate her! She's so evil!"

-_-

She has this conversation in her mind.

Denka: I'm gonna destroy you!
Danya: Can't we just be friends?
Denka: No, I'm gonna destroy you!

-_-"


Kangaroo brought her "dogs" with her today. Only, one wasn't a dog, it was a lion. She named it Sparky. The second dog's name is Patrick, but it really looks like Clifford the Big Red Dog.

Anyways, we (Danya, Chucky, Kangaroo and me) were like multi-vocaling all of them. Okay, I was watching, Danya and Chucky were vocaling. It was so stupid, because Danya said the lion's tail looked like a wiener and Chucky went all "Hey, let's have sex," with Patrick. After that, they went and put the toy things on top of each other and made very wrong sounds.

I looked at Kangaroo. "I'm afraid your dogs just lost their virginity."

She could do nothing but nod.

Haha.

Seriously, it was so funny.

Anyway, after school, I went to eat lunch with my sister and brother. We went next door from our dad's office but the woman mistook my order so I couldn't eat lunch on time. I had to settle for ice kacang. Hey, I ain't complaining! :P I had to bathe first, then eat the ice kacang in the car because my sister asked me to follow her and my brother to the dentist's to change their braces stuff. I had nothing to do, so I took my iPod and Undefined Destiny to pass my time.

I made it back for tuition. It was okay. Recommended for all of you blog readers, go to Youtube, find "Susan Boyle Britains got Talent" and watch her audition. Also, watch "Syaheen Jafargholi Britains got Talent". The guy's really good. He was only 12 years old when he auditioned! Dang!!

Simon (remember him from American Idol??) was stunned by the both of them!!

Yeah, so you can watch. ^ ^

That's about all for today. Didn't do anything else worth mentioning here. Ciao!

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

AHHH!

Now I can tell you: My parents just came back from KOREA!!!

They enjoyed themselves, of course. They got LOADS of souvenirs back too! But due to some crucial circumstances, they should remain hidden until tomorrow. That, of course, depends on whether Danya brings Undefined Destiny tomorrow, since she didn't today.

And I know why Andyy kept saying "Dark side" now. It's because I was being nice to Maria. Haha, but it's okay now. I've put it behind me. Besides, it was to understand the situation. I didn't go to her side. I'm still as much of Danya's friend as I was before. And she really wants to end it. Maria, if you're reading this, you must know that Danya wants to end the fight. She's had that question in her mind ever since she read my blog post. So reconsider being friends and putting it all behind you.

Just consider, will you?

Mwahaha

I'm about to receive Undefined Destiny tomorrow. That's of course if Danya remembers. Seriously, Danya, bring the story tomorrow. I miss reading it. I wanna read it again.

And again...

And again...

...

And again

^ ^

Guess what?

Due to some circumstances, I shall not reveal any names or nicknames in this post.

Person 1 and Person 2 had fun today. They were hanging around after school and were beside the serbaguna when Person 1 said to Person 2: "Hey, I saw Donut today when he was playing baseball, you know?"

Person 2 was like "Uh huh. Where is he now?"

Person 1 was about to say something when Donut walked past. He was smiling and said hi to the both of them. Person 1 and Person 2 were rather agitated and giggly. Person 1 then said "Oh my God!" They mimicked what they did and laughed again when Donut came once more and asked, "Hey, have you seen Daniel?"

Both said no and he went off. They then started laughing again.

* * * * *

I heard the story above from one of my friends. I shall not say who. Anyways, Danya and I found out something really surprising today. We found out who Fina had a crush on. She calls him "Polly Guy". I'm like "What??" Anyway, did you know *censored* told me that her tongue wasn't a virgin anymore?

I know!! That means she frenchkissed her boyfriend! I'm like "What the fish?" <<>

Hell would she give away her virginity so fast! Sheesh. Also, I was ditched today. Prii told me to stay back from 2:30 until 3:30 today for band practice but she went home, so I was stuck in school until 4:00 for nothing. But that was okay, I had moments with Danya. Ooh, did I mention we saw hamsters today?

Yeah! 2 *censored* actually had a cage of hamsters, you know? There were like four of them and one girl brought it up to our class during P.E. But that idiot of a Blackie was so terrified of the hamster, smacked it onto the table and the hamster was left upside down. If she was so scared of them in the first place, why did she bother wanting to hold it?

Does that girl have brains??

No wait...

:P

But seriously, the hamster could've died, but someone like her wouldn't understand I guess. 

Ciao!!

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Butterfly Fly Away - Miley Cyrus

You tuck me in,
Turn out the light
keep me safe and sound at night
little girls depend on things like that

Brush my teeth and combed my hair
had to drive me everywhere
you were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone
Make a live, make a home
Must have been as hard as it could be

And when I couldn't sleep at night
Scare things wouldn't turn out right
you would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree, how you wonder who you'll be
can't go far but you can always dream
Wish you may and wish you mine
don't you worry hold on tight.
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly Fly Away
Butterfly Fly Away (butterfly fly away)

Catch your wing now you cant stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true
Butterfly Fly Away (butterfly fly away)
We been waiting for this day
All along and know just what to do
Butterfly,Butterfly,Butterfly,
Butterfly Fly Away

(Butterfly Fly Away)

(Butterfly Fly Away) 

Today...

Today was officially my sister's 19th birthday. We celebrated it like... a couple of days before, but I'm still gonna wish her anyway. I wanted to get her Mirotic's album. The original one. But unfortunately, I haven't been going out, so... ^ ^ Sorry che.

Anyway, I went for tuition today. Not bad, my Maths is actually improving with going there. And of course, thanks to Danya for tutoring me. ^ ^

Guess what? I went to school penniless today and came back with 6 dollars! No wait... I mentioned that already. However, I didn't mention I got 8 dollars richer after going to tuition!! :P I'm serious. In total, I have 14 dollars to put in my safety bank now. ^ ^

Unfortunately, Danya says she's not gonna pay me anymore... 

-_- 

Come to think of it, tomorrow, I'll be staying back in school and playing "The Climb" by Hannah Montana after school with Prii's band. Obviously, she'll be singing. I'll be playing the piano. I hope I don't forget my notes. I listened to the song about a few days ago and started playing it on the piano. I haven't played it in front of any of my friends yet, but I hope they like it. I'm not exactly really prepared for it, but I'll do my best.

There's another thing I wanted to tell you. Hmm... I've been listening to quite a lot of new songs lately. One, "The Climb", second, "If a song could get me you" by Marit Larsen. She's not such a bad singer. Anyway, "Find Yourself" by Brad Paisley. Oh, I love that song. It's so nice. It's from Spirit, the stallion of the cimarron. Find it on Youtube, the download link should be there.

I can almost see it.

That dream I'm dreaming, but

There's a voice inside my head saying

You'll never reach it

Every step I'm takin'

Every move I make

Feels lost with no direction,

My faith is shakin'

But I gotta keep tryin'

Gotta keep my head held high

 

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side

It's the climb

 

The struggles I'm facing

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes might knock me down, but

No I'm not breaking

I may not know it, but

These are the moments that

I'm gonna remember most

I've just gotta keep goin', and

I gotta be strong

Just keep pushing on, but

 

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side

It's the climb

 

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waitin' on the other side

It's the climb

 

Keep on movin'

Keep climbin'

Keep faith baby

It's all about, it's all about

The climb

Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah 


This is the lyrics for the song, of course. It's a nice song, and her voice was unexceptionally nice here so I guess it's okay. Another song I heard is "Butterfly Fly Away" also by Miley Cyrus. It's amazing how a teen like her can be... well, practically a child prodigy by singing. Anyways, my dad just called! From overseas!! I won't tell you where, but he called to wish che che happy birthday.

Ya... My parents are coming back tomorrow. Mwahaha. Oh, and another thing, one of my friends, Naz, has actually been attending SBS for a while now. For some reason, I didn't know. Haha. Maybe because I don't bother finding out. He's chatting with me right now, and I was like "How come I don't see you?"

"Can't find you."

-_- Oi, try la. Me, better still,  I didn't even know he was in SBS till he told me just now that he's been attending for about a month. I might see him tomorrow, after school. His PF time is on Thursday and ours is tomorrow, so I think we might meet. 

He says PF takes up a lot of free time to eat so he's always hungry during curicculum activities. Poor thing. Oh well, if fate shall cross our ways tomorrow, we shall meet. If it doesn't, I'll complain again. :P 

School's cool, I guess, since I've cleared everything with Maria and earning extra money by charging people who want nifty poems like the ones I've been making for Danya, Chucky and a lot of other random people.

When I have the time, maybe I'll make one myself and post it up here. ^ ^

For now, though, I have to Ciao!!

I'm sorry Danya...

I'm SO sorry, Danya. 

All about nifty!!

Because of Andyy and Maria, I'm now addicted to writing nifty poems for my friends. I've decided to make money out of it too!!! Haha. I went to school today penniless and came back with 6 dollars in my pocket!! Haha!!!

If you look at my friends blogs, you'll realize I made nifty poems for them. They should've posted it up, no doubt. Haha.

If you want one. Tell me, and you can pay 50 cents for two on one page!!! Haha!!!

Haiz...

Haiz... I'm not going to like what I'm going to do now. I'm afraid I'll have to say sorry to that bastard. *I'm sorry, Maria, but this is all I can manage. Don't expect too much*

Anyway, I just want to say that after school today I met up with Maria because I wanted an explanation. We were going to talk it out. Of course, we did. And I realized, maybe Maria had a point. Perhaps... Perhaps if I put myself in her shoes for a moment, I would be able to understand what she had to go through. 

Danya, understand that I'm not trying to side anybody. I need to have a neutral thinking right now if I'm going to decide who's right.

And I've decided.

Both of you are right. Both of you are wrong. You both had your faults. Now that I think properly, Danya, I guess you didn't take the time to realize what Maria was going through. What she told me... she said that if you were her real friend, you wouldn't have made Maria choose between you or that bastard. To us and you, perhaps friends come first, but we both have to remember that every person is different, both mentally and physically. Her ways of thinking are different from yours, so you have to understand that both were important to her.

Of course, that was before. Now, I don't think you both can be friends. She doesn't either. But I hope that one day, when you all grow up, I hope you'll reflect your mistakes, forgive and forget.

Another thing, you're probably wondering why I 'm thinking this way. That's because I've heard from two sides now. Danya, you're thinking what mistakes you've made, right? That mistake was making her choose.

You should've had more trust in her. You should've just believed her. Just let it be. So what if she chose both. If both were important to her, that means you're on the same level, right? Shouldn't you just be happy with that?

I wouldn't, of course, but as she said, we have to take the fact no two people are the same. We all have our differences. Opinions are no exception.

That's all I wanted to say. Apart from the fact I really want this to be solved, but I understand it can't be done now. 

Ciao!!

Monday, April 20, 2009

New story...

No, I didn't mean I'm writing a new story, okay? I meant it as I heard stories from one side of the argument. Now, I need to wait for tomorrow to hear the other side of it. Tch, I just hope she remembers. And by the way, just to let you know "stickers", if you're trying to make me feel insulted or bad, it's not going to work, because you might not know my friends, but I have true friends that will always be there for me.

Unfortunately, I thought you were one of them. Apparently not, since you're one of those people who like making others feel bad. And another thing, if you're trying to pull something stupid like letting us know you read our posts by posting them on your blog, it's not working either. The reason we put them there is to let you read them anyway. So you can continue posting stuff like this on your blog, but I don't care.

But I thought you had a better mindset than to choose that bastard over Danya. 

Tch.

Anyways, back to jolly ol' good me. I'm sorry for my outburst yesterday, but I really couldn't take it. The one thing I really hate is when someone like him claims that he knows me when he doesn't. He knows peanuts about me. He's just trying to act smart.

Okay, I'll stop there, I'm not supposed to be ranting anymore. I did that yesterday.

Okay, so I heard Danya's side of the story and how she chose her boyfriend over her. I was so friggin' pissed when I heard the phrase "It's not my fault you were involved."

Hello? Why don't you just keep the secret if someone tells you to? And by the way, what's the point of even mentioning the whole B.U. thing if you're only mentioning one side of it. It's stupid to say "I'll mention Naz but not you."

It's because of Danya and him that you have the information in the first place. You can't mention one side and not the other. That's just a pathetic reason to tell your boyfriend about everything. 

Another thing, how can you want to tell him everything? You choose your boyfriend over Danya, and the next thing, I'll hear you chose your boyfriend over your family. I really wanna ask you one thing.

: Is he really worth it?

Think about the things he's done and the things he's misunderstood. What does all that tell you?

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Get OUT of my life!!

For God's sake, I hate you! I hate you and I want you to dissolve into thin air and DISAPPEAR! I don't care about what you say! I want you to go away and buzz off my case! Why do you even bother talking to me?! I don't give hell's SHIT about you!

You're the reason everyone's in this mess! You treat the people around you like dirt! Like someone just shoved them away! What the hell is your problem anyway? What part of "I hate you" do you not understand?! I want you to go away and leave me alone!!!

You're insensitive, vain, disgusting, impetuous, pathetic, despicable, impertinent, uncooperating, insufferable and a typhus infection! Why does she even LIKE you in the first place? You misunderstand, you're always misguided and a loser because you can't give your own girlfriend some peace of mind! You misunderstood when she was just talking to one of her friends! 

Yes! I may not know peanuts about you, but you cannot say you know me at ALL! You don't fucking know ANYTHING about me so just keep your gap shut! Your sorry ass is none of my business and I don't care if there are selfish backstabbers in the world who complain about me because you only want to be liked. You think everything's about you! I ask you to leave me alone and you make me more miserable!

You think I'm like this around my friends?? You think my true friends would EVER see this side of me?! You think you know oh-so-bloody much about me but the truth is you DON'T! You know peanuts about me as I know peanuts about you and you know what?! GOOD! I don't want to hear anything about you pretending that you know ANYTHING about me! If you DARE say anymore about knowing ANYTHING about me, bastard, you might as well say you know Barrack Obama! 

LEAVE ME OUT OF YOUR STUPID GAMES TO GAIN SATISFACTION FROM PEOPLE WHO THINK YOU'RE NICE BUT END UP BEING MISTAKEN IN THE END!

And keep your dirty, filthy, disgusting hands OFF my best friend or I swear one day, I will cut your reason for being a man! You're no man! You're a cissy! And a stupid one at that! You're the worst boy anyone can meet in the world and perhaps she's blind to think someone like YOU would even be worth her time!

And you think I care if anyone complains about me? You think no one complains about you?! You're stupid, insensitive and a fucking git to think that everyone thinks you're an angel! At least I'm prepared for the fact that there are bastards and bitches in the world who think I'm a bitch. I've got a classmate who calls me a bitch everytime I walk past him and I twisted someone's arm because she's done something bad to me! 

If you think I like to just stand aside and let people like YOU tell ME how I am and what my personality is like, you're wrong. You're damn fucking wrong! I don't fucking care about whatever you say about me because I know I'm something else. I've never said I've known you so you can't say the same about me either. I hate your guts and your filthy way of thinking.

You might try and make my hatred for you go away, but if there's one thing I know that I've learnt from my sister, it's SO MUCH easier to HATE than to be nice! I'm sick and tired of being pushed around by you. You switch girlfriends like you change your clothes! I don't care if I'm not right, because this is MY life, it's MY time and MY decision if I want to make it complicated and make people hate me because it's ME. I've got my own life to lead and I don't need people telling me how to lead it!

SO JUST BUZZ OFF AND GET OUT OF MY LIFE!

MAN!!!

I wanna change my bloody blogskin la!!! Unfortunately, the stupid iMac doesn't exactly work properly, so I can't download the stupid blog skin. Looks like I'll still have to go to my dad's office anyway.

By the way, seems like something's finally gonna happen. I'll be "talking" to her on Tuesday after school and I hope all goes well. Frankly speaking, I'm sick and tired of all this. For God's sake, why do friends fight anyway? I wish evil never existed.

Wait, would that mean I'd be friends with sudimati? No way. I take it back. :P

Cleaning up

You say you're not a coward, how much of that is true?
You bid farewell on your blog, and say I'm accusing you?
You forgot that there was once, I did hear you out,
But you wouldn't really tell me, what all that was about.
You say I don't understand, the reasons you have but well,
How am I supposed to understand, when explanations, you cannot spell.
I know you have your problems, I know you have your reasons,
But you never think twice, before making decisions.
You never sought to seek the answer, to all that you both have done,
But instead of that you accuse me, of understanding none.
You tell me to look around, and find the answer you haven't,
But yes, I can see the answer lying around, it's just you who couldn't.
An answer as easy as saying, "Sorry, let's forget about all that's happened",
Never occured to you because, by all that you're not saddened.
Can you really say, I haven't been a friend?
When all that we all have been through, you put it to an end?
You say that I blame you, but that, you see, is not true,
For I only blame you for being a coward, and making us feel blue.
You think it's better, for us to wear a mask?
And forever think of joy, is it such an easy task?
You say I'd never know, the pain that you feel?
That's a lie in truth itself, I have more problems than looks appeal.
I have two categories of friends, and one of them is you,
The other brings more problems than yours, because they not not what I'm going through.
I have to stand the fact that both just don't mix,
And there's nothing left, that I can do to fix,
I hate it when my friends fight, but they do not care,
For they hate each other more, and that I cannot bear,
Don't you dare say I cannot understand your pain,
For it's what they say that makes me wince, "when there's no pain, no gain."

Funny, isn't it? The fact that I actually bother posting all these up just to fix problems that were never mine to begin with. Maybe it's just me. Maybe it's how nosy I am, to pry into other people's businesses. Or maybe I just can't stand friends fighting over lord knows what.

Well, all I can say is, being mean is way easier than being nice. Trust me, I had that from my sister. Trust me, I've never seen her so angry with a guy before. But let me tell you this, my temper is worst than hers when it comes to things like these. What she posted on her blog seconds before I did this, I can do worse.

Read this : http://clare21eithra.blogspot.com/2009/04/its-easier-to-be-mean-than-be-nice.html and you'll understand.

Hmm...

Guess what? My brother bought "Bride Wars" yesterday after dinner so my sister and I watched it yesterday. It was really hilarious and everything. Anne Hathaway's hair looked really nice there and her friend... Well, aggressive. :)

By the way, class yesterday was really infuriating because Sean just couldn't understand anything. Actually, to tell you the truth, I have a bit of a problem on Changing notes (nota cambiata) as well. For some reason, I was the last to hand in my work yesterday. Apart from that, I actually had mistakes, when Sean had none. Something must've been wrong with me...

Also, my cutie dog, Snuffles (Snowy), is having her manstrual cycle again. It's been long since she had it but we don't intend on mating her with any dog. Mainly because she's too old and the last time we tried, she nearly bit the male dog. :P I was serious. That dog was such a pampered, pompous dog that slept under the air cond and ate fruits. His bark... what bark?? He couldn't bark to scare off a cat. Something in me informs me I should thank God Snowy is picky with her choices. ^ ^

But I don't care, she's my cute little Snuffles, and she always will be.

The day hasn't passed long enough for me to post anything worth reading, but Andyy read my blog, read the poem and asked me to make another one of my "nifty" poems for her as well to post on her blog. I already made it and I'd post it up here, but that wouldn't really be nice, because others would've read my blog, seen the poem first before she posted it on hers, so I'll just wait and give it to her when she goes online.

^ ^

Oh yeah, and on behalf of my friend, Ihm, who insisted on having what happened in the Bilik Serbaguna yesterday, I shall tell of that tale.

It was a few days ago and we all had relief class (I forgot which subject), and the guys went all gay and started going ontop of each other. It was not a pretty sight. They would pick any random guy from our class and make him fall, then the gay-ing would begin when everyone slobbered on top of the small dude, making him suffocate.

Me? I was watching and thinking, "I pity whoever's below."

Then came the hilarious part. They were ontop of... Hmm... Can't remember who, but he was a small person, I remember. They were all having their backs toward the door when a teacher walked in; their PJ teacher. It was such an amusing scene because they didn't know who walked in and was continuing with the humping! 

I was laughing so hard, my sides hurt like crap. It was only after about 10 seconds that they realized and hurriedly got off each other.

Dang, what the teacher must've thought when beheld the magnificant sight. :P 

Apart from that, I don't have anything worth posting about, so I shall tune out now.

Ciao!!

P/S: I nearly cried yesterday night thinking about Mico, but decided to save my tears for when the anniversary of her death came.

Friday, April 17, 2009

From what I read...

From what I read, I answer now,
From what I read, you're a cow,
Clear conscience, to you a word not,
Clear confusion, that's what you've brought,
Forbidden is what you claim to say,
For one fine day you walk away,
Foe is the word you choose to use,
But what have she given to you as clues?
You might not have done somewhat a crime,
But you cannot blame your wrongs on time,
For that is not what made you choose,
To end a friendship that was just loose,
Yet you say there was a crack,
But intellect, that's what you lack,
Because neither of you were right or wrong,
But both of you just went along,
Pain and tears don't come and pass,
Each time they do, for months they last,
If you're sorry for what decisions you've done,
That doesn't show, for you regret none,
There's truth in your words, your moments were there,
But compared to most, those are bare,
Farewell, you say? Goodbye to your friend?
From what I read, you're just a coward, in the end.

~Visit her blog and you'll know what I mean~

Dang!!

Looks like war to me. They're not speaking to us. Only Fi does, ocassionally. I don't even know what their problem is.

The least they could've done was tell us their problem. We could have just tried to solve it. Though, I haven't been able to stand her since I began spending time with them. I found she wanted to make us say what she wanted to hear. When I noticed that, I made up my mind to say the complete opposite of what she wants to hear.

But now that we're not even sitting together at recess says enough, no? But I just wanted to stress that you are the most insensitive and irritating git I've ever met in my entire life. (That's not particularly true, but yeah, you get what I mean). I mean, you only want people to satisfy you by telling you what you want to hear. I know your little trick but it's not going to work on me. Another thing, since when have you become Albert Einstein? You pick fights with teachers all the time in class when you're wrong and you don't want to admit it. It's so sickening. Even when you were fighting with our Vice President of the ELS club. 

Annoying habits die hard but so do hatred and grudges.

Everybody says that you're trying to take over the whole club just because you like debating. If you think you're so good at debating, why don't you join the debate club or something? Now there's something you can put your annoyance to good use. You say you like editting but can't write? That's bullcrap. You try ever so hard everytime to make me feel jealous by preaching your essays to me. Look, I don't give a damn about whether it's nice. It's just a bloody composition for your English class. 

You can't act? Another bullcrap. You know you're good but you want to hear that from someone else's mouth. You practically use your friends with your little vain plot to gain satisfaction. 

Taste in boys is another issue. Your boyfriend sucks to the high heavens. He's stupid and masochistic, not to mention VAIN. He probably carries a pocket mirror just to check for zits. I mean, concern to complexion, fine, but as desperate as to complain like a girl? Spending money, another forte of his. That guy spends money like he grows them under his nose. I've always wished I could take his money and shove it up his ass and make him see what its doing to him. He boasts as well as he lies. He as vain as blonde girls on a bad hair day. He craps as well as you.

Now what about that? You two both have so much in common. They say opposites attract, but apparently, that doesn't apply to you both.

Yet, I can't bring myself to hate you. You help me all the time and you are funny. You have good ideas and creativity, you sing well (another thing you make your friends admit for you), and you care about your friends. But why doesn't that apply to them? You know who I'm talking about. You just pushed them aside without giving an explanation. We're baffled and confused but the only thing you can say is "Hey, here's your two bucks."

Well, if you're reading this now, I hope you know how I feel. And the fact that I'm typing this here, in public and not as a private message, you'll know it's because I'm not afraid of letting you know.

~Tune out~

Thursday, April 16, 2009

On the 16th of April

On the 16th of April…

Well, things were about the same as they’ll ever be; only I seem to hate today a lot. For one, I was late. The night before, I had to help my stupid brother do his stupid KKG (Geography project) so we slept at about 12 something. The next day, I woke up and decided not to go to school and told my mom I didn’t want to go, but she made me go anyway.

When I reached school, I sat at the back for a while then hopped to the front where no one ever sits: beside Kangaroo. It was horrible that morning because we had to listen to two Riau people and listen to Puan K crap on stage. Seriously, I hate that woman. They said David Archuleta wanted to go to CBN but they refused, so they wanted to come to our school to perform but our stupid headmistress refused because she said it would disrupt the Riau people.

Grr…

Then, KDU decided to pay David Archuleta to perform at the university. Seriously, eff that woman to the high heavens la.

Anyway, after that, we went to class. Had ICTL but stayed in class that day. We were learning about software crap about Operating Systems and Utilities as well as Applications. Then, we had Recess.

Hmm… As usual, I didn’t bring any money today and so shared with Danya her chicken rice. She was unexceptionally nice today. Wonder why…? Beside us sat Shobz and Becky. Wondering why Maria and the others weren’t there? Well, Andyy was sick, so she is excused. However, Fina and Maria sat with Vero. Tch, since when were they on unexpectedly good terms? They practically ignored me when I came and asked them if the places were taken.

“Yes.” That was Fina’s answer. Sheesh, did I do anything offensive??

Grr… But all that was paid off with some juicy news we got from Shobz and Becky about Sudimati. Due to circumstances in which some unwanted people would come and read my infamous blog, I shall not mention what news they are.

Hah, padan muka.

Anyway, Danya made me exercise as always today. She’s quite close to me now. She’d attempt to grab me before I sit down. What I’m talking about? You mean you don’t know?? Sheesh. Since a few weeks back, Danya and I have been playing some exercising game that includes me escaping for my life whilst Danya tries her best to slap my ass.

Not a pleasant thought.

We had Moral next where we all went to the library. Nice, cold and with a dictionary and thesaurus. Haha, I could live in the library. Oh ho! And I guess I didn’t tell you that I asked Haylie about her reaction to Jus without hair spray and she said it was better without, so when I told him that yesterday, guess what? He didn’t put any today! HAHA!

I knew he would do that because frankly speaking, I hate it when he sprays his hair. Such a narcissist. Haha, again. After we came back from the library, we had BM, in which case Ihm got belasah-ed by Puan Z and Kangaroo and Chucky went into another one of their silly fights.

After that, we had Geo but our marvelous teacher went to bersalin and so we had no choice but to go down to the Bilik Serbaguna. I tried to play the piano but some prefects came in and ordered me to stop.

Sheng made it better when he said, “Don’t worry, Lou, they just ask you to stop because they’re jealous.’ He literally stressed on that word so they could hear. Sometimes, he’s really sweet but the rest of the time…

Grr…

After Geo, we finished school and I played the piano for a little while before Shan came and asked me to go up to 5 Berdikari for our Orion meeting. She was really pissed off and she was crying. Well, close to having them fall over her face, but that should be hinting enough for all the Orion members to STAY BACK FOR THE MEETING, RIGHT??!!! The only ones who were there were me, Blackie, and Mica, who was only there because Shan was scolding her for not attending even one of the meetings.

Seriously, you do not wanna see her mad, it’s scary.

However, I wasn’t lying to her when I admitted the Orion was getting boring. It was so uninteresting because everyone else wasn’t even bothered about contributing ideas to the Orion newsletter. Except me, Andyy and Naddine, according to Shan.

After that, I played a little more of the piano, then called my brother telling him to tell my sister to pick me up at 3. However, she was having an exam so I had to stay till 4. But it was okay, I guess. I toyed around with Cleo’s rubrics cube and chatted with Kangaroo and Cleo, waiting patiently for my sister to arrive.

It was so hilarious, because all of them were like doing things and asking me, “So, Lou, am I your favourite now?” and “You see, she dropped your bag on purpose, Lou!"

It was both hilarious and annoying at the same time. But I guess it was okay. ^ ^ My sister came soon after and we went back home. We bought ais kacang on the way back and chatted whilst we ate.

The day pretty much ended like that. Ciao, little bloggie! 

My Class...

I love my class. It’s funny and none of the students take studying seriously. I mean, that’s not necessarily good, but I it’s definitely better than going to the better classes and get looked down at. Yeah, it’s good and all, because the teachers take it you really want to learn, but what’s the point if everyone’s gonna act like zombies? Everyone in the higher classes only want to study and think everything’s for real. One word…

BORING!!!

There are also fun people. Like Thong and all that. Jus and Sheng who really crack the class up. Especially Ihm. Phoo! That guy can really turn the class upside down.

Then there are my friends. Kangaroo, Chucky, Shuen and Danya are all there and I feel so happy they’re in my class. Life would be so dull without them.

Then again, my friends are the reason I hate my class. Why the hell did the teachers put Kangaroo and Chucky in the same class? They hate each other’s guts. Literally. I bet if anyone of them could, they would seriously impale each other with stakes until the other dies.

No, not even until they cry help, until they die.

It’s that serious, their hatred. But I hate it! I hate it when the both of them fight because its so god damned bloody obvious they hate each other. And come on, bloggie, I’m sure you know how much I hate it when my friends fight. They might not be the best of friends or even the slightest of friends but if they wanna fight, don’t do it in front of me. Like it or not, both of you are my friends, both of you have qualities that I both hate and like, so just GET ALONG or GET LOST!

Kangaroo, I hate it when you start acting like you know every bloody thing under the moon and when you start treating me like I’m younger than you. Like it or not, I’m a few months older than you and I’m not some young stupid brat who likes their cheeks pinched or poked. However, I like, love it when you start kutuk-ing Sudimati. I love it, okay? I also love it when you help me and everything and when you make me laugh and I love teaching you Japanese. I love your qualities and I also hate them. It’s equal on both sides.

Chucky, I hate it when you start fights with Kangaroo. Like it or not, you are always the one who gives Kangaroo a reason to talk back at you. I don’t care if you hate her and despise her, but if you don’t do anything to her, she won’t do anything to you. Why can’t you just understand that? Just leave her alone. I hate it when you start asking her to keep quiet and everything else because we all have to respect our elders and that includes you. I hate my brother, but you don’t see me asking him to flush his head down the toilet, right? -_- But I love it when you kutuk Sudimati. I love it when you start making funny jokes and even if they’re not funny, we laugh anyway, because the expression on your face is hilarious. :P I love you qualities and as well I hate them. It’s equal.

So the both of you have sides which people hate and sides which people love. That’s why we’re still friends. Do you think I would even want to look at you if you didn’t have good qualities to top everything??

And the fact that I’m typing everything here in my blog is proof I’m not afraid of letting you know how I really feel and how I think of your stupidity in the way you’re behaving.

~Tune out~

Friday, April 10, 2009

Sen No Yoru Wo Koete

Just came back from tuition. Man, that guy's getting on my nerves. Did I mention I think he still likes his ex-girlfriend? He sends secret messages and looks at her many times. I'm like, "Dude, you're the one who doesn't like her and she doesn't like you either."

Okay, I didn't exactly say it out, but hey, no harm in saying what I'm thinking.

There's a new song I don't really mind from AquaTimez. It's called Sen No Yoru Wo Koete. Translated into English, it would be "Passing through one thousand nights". Not bad, really. It's a guy band and the guys... I can't really comment on them. They don't look as nice as DBSK (Then again, who does? :P) but their voices aren't so bad. Harmonizing, okay. Music and background, okay. Lead singer, they don't really show his face, so I'm guessing they know how to disguise ugly when they see it. :P No offence, seriously. It was just a joke.

Anyways, I'll be posting up the lyrics. ^ ^

aisaretai demo aisou to shinai
sono kurikaeshi no naka wo samayotte
boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte kizutsuitatte
suki na hito ni wa sukitte tsutaeru n da

anata ga boku wo aishiteru ka aishitenai ka
nante koto wa mou docchi demo ii n da
donna ni negai nozomou ga
kono sekai ni wa kaerarenu mon ga takusan aru darou
sou soshite boku ga anata wo aishiteru to iu jijitsu dake wa
dare ni mo kaerarenu shinjitsu dakara

sen no yoru wo koete anata ni tsutaetai
tsutaenakya naranai koto ga aru
aisaretai demo aisou to shinai
sono kurikaeshi no naka wo samayotte
boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte
kizutsuitatte suki na hito ni wa sukitte tsutaeru n da
kimochi wo kotoba ni suru no wa kowai yo
demo suki na hito ni wa sukitte tsutaeru n da

kono hiroi sekai de meguriau yorokobi wo kotoba ja iiarawasenai ne
dakara bokutachi wa hohoemi iro azayaka ni sugiru aki wo DOREMI de utatte
fuyu wo se ni haru no komorebi wo machi
atarashiku umarekawaru dare ka wo mamoru you ni to

kita michi to ikisaki furikaereba itsudemo okubyou na me shite ita boku
mukiaitai demo sunao ni narenai
massugu ni aite wo aisenai hibi wo
kurikaeshite wa hitoribocchi wo iyagatta ano hi no boku wa
mukizu no mama de hito wo aisou to shite itai

sen no yoru wo koete ima anata ni ai ni yukou
tsutaenakya naranai koto ga aru
aisaretai demo aisou to shinai
sono kurikaeshi no naka wo samayotte
boku ga mitsuketa kotae wa hitotsu kowakutatte
kizutsuitatte suki na hito ni wa sukitte tsutaeru n da
sono omoi ga kanawanakutatte suki na hito ni sukitte tsutaeru
sore wa kono sekai de ichiban suteki na kotosa


















Yeah, anyways, when you have the time, look up this song in Youtube and download the song at http://www.mp3-codes.com/. They're not so bad a search engine for songs. Only when you're looking for Japanese songs, I'd recommend http://www.gendou.com/. Now that's a website you'd never want to go away. ^ ^


Yeah...


Anyways, I discovered a new downloading engine since http://www.downthisvideo.com/ decided to go all gay to me and I had to choose another site. Found one, of course. This one's called http://www.keepvid.com/. It's not that bad. Tis' the same as downthisvideo only there are two kinds of videos, one high quality and the other low quality. Of course, I chose high quality.


I really hope the computer doesn't go haywire like it did yesterday. It really freaked me out because it started making loads of tabs and I didn't even press any buttons. It only happened when my sister opened her blog. Is it corrupted?


Nobody knows...


*Air of mystery blows...*


^ ^ Oh well, gotta ciao now. Downloading A Love To Kill by Rain and other actors I'm quite familiar with. Bye bye!

IRRITATING!!!

Man! I really despise that guy! I mean, everytime I just walk pass him and the only thing that comes out of his mouth is...

"Bitch."

or...

"Fuck."

And all the other insults he can think of. Did I do anything to you, huh?! I don't even know you that well! All I know is you're in the same class as I am, your surname is that of a Thong <<>> and that you like some girl named Nessa.

I don't freaking give a damn about you! Sheesh! Why don't you go back to where you came from, huh? It's not like I did anything to you, right?? Grr!

Who I'm talking about? Tch, if you don't know after that big Thong clue, you're an idiot. Anyways, I was just minding my own business and when I had to throw something into the dustbin, I happened to walk past him and he looked at me, with a serious face and said, "Bitch." Then started laughing. Idiot. What exactly did I do? Not only does he do it to me, he does it to Danya as well. He goes like, "Oi, Mat Salleh."

I'm like, "Oi, shut up."

I mean, nobody did anything! To him, that is.

Honestly, does he have a problem? I'm surprised he likes somebody. Especially since she didn't look that pretty to me. I mean, you go after Charmaine then I understand la, but NESSA?? What's wrong with you? Not to mention the fact that she speaks like a chinapek. Annoying!

Sheesh.

Seriously, Thong, are you just naturally born evil or so stupid you can't differentiate the meanings of swear words and normal "good" words. It sickens me to walk past him everyday and hear him call me a Bitch.

Jus is so much better than him. Looks-wise, yes, Thong is better, but hello? I'd take Jus's personality anytime. At least he has got a better one. Even though he swears just as much. I mean, come on, if someone walks pass you and you look at him, if he suddenly says, "Tch, bitch." or "Fucker", do you like it? So do you expect me to tahan?

No!

I gave him glares and silent treatments and if he felt it, PADAN MUKA! That serves YOU right for crossing blades with me, buster!

Hmph. You wait, Thong, on Saturday and Monday you're gonna get HELL from ME!!!

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Don't know...

I really don't know why I made a Facebook account in the first place. I don't even like Facebook. I think I did it because everyone else had an account.

But I rarely go. I only go because I need to confirm requests and ignore some that I wouldn't bother myself with.

And also to play with Ezmeria in Pet Society :P

ICTL...

I'm in school right now, as you know. I always blog once in school first before blogging at home on Thursdays.

Anyway, our ICTL teacher didn't come today so we had to settle with a substitute. Trust me, I'm glad our teacher - pregnant, by the way - was on leave for about 6 months. I mean, I don't know about the time limit, but you get what I mean, right?

Also, I'm working on a new story. Yes, yes, I know, how many stories do I wanna start before I finish any... Well, the answer's simple. I start new ones to gain inspiration for the stories before. It works...

For me, that is...

The story I'm working on now is called Beneath Soil. Well, I haven't exactly given it a name yet, but it's not bad, the Beneath Soil title. It suits the story too. It's about a guy who finds a girl who came out of a coffin.

No, she's not a vampire.

Now I'm rather cautious around vampire books, mainly because of Twilight.

Trust me, those who know me personally would know I have something against that book. I mean, yeah, it's good and all, but only the first book's nice. The first and last. And that's taking me a lot of effort to admit. I'm only saying the fourth book's nice because my sister said it was nice.

-_-

Sorry if I don't know how to appreciate New Moon and Eclipse but those are the two books I hate the most.

And the movie's no better.

I hate it because of him. He's should never have played Edward in the first place. It ruins everything. Kristen Stewart looks more of a vampire than him. Anyway, I hate the Twilight series because of Bella. She's so selfish and everything. The fourth book made me despise her like crap especially since she was made to be an unusual new-born/blooded vampire. Tch, it's despicable.

Anyway, I just watched some fanmade trailer on Youtube the other day on New Moon. Not bad, makes me wanna watch it. And that's only because Kristen looks really good there.

Also, the new Jacob (I think) looks cute, so I guess watching it wouldn't hurt, though I would hate it like crap. I don't know why, but I just hate the scene of someone holding a Twilight series book in hand.

Am I just jealous?

But of WHAT??? That I can't write a stupid book that will make readers hate the main character????

-_- Nonsense.

Did I mention I was Head of the Journalist department in the ELS?

Random.

Guess what? I actually have "Can I have your number" in my iPod. I can memorize all of Darrell's lines, okay! My friends listen to me imitate me all the time and although I don't have the black (I'm not being racist) slang, Shuen loves it when I say "Grace Kelly". Mwahaha.

You should really watch it. Come to think of it, I haven't exactly seen the one Danya asked me to watch. The Charlie the Unicorn thing. I also wanna watch the "A Black Woman can't have this job" thing. I forgot the title but I know bits and pieces of it.

I wanna download the Twilight and Titanic spoofs too. The way Andyy described it was irresistable temptation to leave it be. ^ ^

Technically, that's all I have for today. Come to think of it, I haven't been blogging in a long time. Oh well, CIAO!!!

Saturday, April 4, 2009

RM20

Guess what??? Today I went to school because of some Anugerah Cemerlang thing and I was part of the choir so I couldn't skip. -_-

Anyway, the choir thing was okay. I brought my iPod too, to let everyone listen to it and watch "Can I have Your Number?" :P It was hilarious.

Also, here's the big highlight for today...

I got RM20 richer.

Well, Jiun was playing with ice and putting them on her ring finger, for fun. She had a whole cup. I wanted one to eat but I didn't exactly know which she had put on her finger, so I asked her to take one she hadn't used.

In the end, I ended up picking one myself. It was freezing cold and Danya was like "I dare you to put it in your ear."

"It can't fit in my ear."

Maria said, "I dare you to put it in your nose."

"All the more it won't fit."

Then she said "I dare you to put one in your bra."

I was like... "How much are you willing to pay?"

"20 ringgit, everyone 5 ringgit each."

"I'll really do it, you know..."

"Well, do lah!"

"I want the money from you."

Maria smiled and said, "Shit. I'm practically giving her money."

Then she added, "I'll give you RM20 if you put the whole cup down your shirt."

I did.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Throat sore and legs hurting..

Yet, I still want to do it. I still want to perform and sing my heart out.

Haiz... The things I do for choir.

Anyway, I had a bad stomach ache today after recess - I ate uncooked roti telur. So, I was in the Ladies' Sickbay the whole time after recess. It had its advantages and disadvantages, of course. For one thing, I got to sleep the whole day. However, there were a few malays that came in and started gossipping!

I mean, hello? Sick person trying to sleep here!! They started singing, okay? When one of them said, "Sakit perutlah ni..."

You know what I wanted to say?

"Sakit perut atau sakit mental?"

Tch, pity I didn't. -_-

After that we had choir, and sang and sang and sang and sang until my throat and legs started hurting. According to Kangaroo and Maria, we three (Cleo, Adine and I) sang the loudest. I was fine with it, only the one thing that irritated me was that everytime we all sang, the rest of them go faster so I have to try and make them sing slower.

We embarrassed ourselves on stage once (inside story), do you think I really want it to happen again??

Phew, that's all for now, I guess. Will update some other time, ya? Thanks and BYE!!!

Within Cherished Walls...

a.k.a. the Centenary Song.

Sheesh, honestly, our throats are SO gonna break by the time the performance is over. What I'm talking about? Our choir team, of course. Apparently, we're going to be performing on the 4th of April and we're singing two songs. One of the songs we're singing is the Centenary Song, but I prefer to call it "Within Cherished Walls".

It's actually a nice song, I guess. It requires loads of stomach work cause Zen's always asking us to "Use stomach voice!! Don't use your throat voice!!"

Yeah...

Now I've got time, I'll give you the lyrics to the song...

If through these walls,
We can hear the stories long ago,
Those *censored* dreams
Their hopes and more...

And if through these walls,
We can see the days before,
We'll see the joy, the rise and growth
Every smile that greets hello...

Names may change and faces pass,
But the tune's the same we'll make it last,
We'll learn these words before
They come to pass...

*censored* in my heart,
Ten decades we've grown to love,
Add a hundred more, my heart will still belong,
Within these cherished walls...

Here on these walls,
I found meanings of love,
To conquer fears to wipe the sorrow tears...

And I learned of friends,
Learned to give a helping hand,
And when I'm lost they'll guide my way,
With God's will till the end...

Names may change and faces pass,
But the tune's the same we'll make it last,
We'll learn these words before
They come to pass...

*censored* in my heart,
Ten decades we've grown to love,
Add a hundred more, my heart will still belong,
Within these cherished walls...

Names may change and faces pass,
But the tune's the same we'll make it last,
We'll learn these words before
They come to pass...

Within these walls we've built our lives,
For a hundred years it stayed with us,
Let's keep it standing... strong...

Ciao!