あのね〜

You know, just last Thursday *not two days before*, my tuition teacher was talking about self-discipline. Then he spoke about the case where the 15-year-old boy got shot by the police when he was driving his mom's car at 3 in the morning.

His mom said it was not the police's fault, but also her fault for not taking care of his child properly and not knowing his whereabouts.

All in all, it was mainly telling us that it is always a part of our faults to why something happens.

So... I'm wondering, last Friday, which was the last day of school before our two-week break and also our Teacher's Day, what exactly did I do wrong that led to us not being able to perform. For quite some time I've been trying to fathom the reason behind us not performing. Did I do something wrong? Did my friends do something wrong? Did we not achieve minimum grades in order to perform?

You know, what really pissed me off was that we took the damn time off our studies to actually rehearse for that bloody day and you just cast us aside like we're unwanted pests. Do you take pleasure in that? We skipped our lessons just to make sure we didn't cause so much as a slip during the actual performance and this is how we get repaid.

Screw y'all.

How the hell do you think we feel when we have someone come up to us and say, "Oh, we just realized we might not have enough time for your items so we put you last so if there really is no time, you don't have to perform."

Why don't you use your f*cking brains and think for a friggin' second? How the hell did you think we felt when you said that to us? It's supposed to be Teachers' Day, we were all supposed to do something for our "loving" teachers and then you do this shit.

To think I even thought of making the song special by adding another chorus and changing the lyrics so that you actually understand that you mean a lot to us?

Half the students didn't turn up for the rehearsal on Thursday but you chose to dismiss our items instead? Choral speaking? Dikir barat? Why? Because our school's famous for that? Because it's Malay? And even our teacher's "sketch". Did it have to last so God damn long? If you had brains, you'd have the common sense to plan the stupid order of things so that no items have to be dismissed.

Stupid.

Real stupid.

You all have no heart. You don't think we have feelings.

Did you even think, "Gee, I wonder how the others might feel if we do this?" or "I should probably go and apologize personally."

Go-to-hell. Seriously. You might give us the image that you love us so friggin' much, but imagine how we all feel about you now, huh?

Forget it. I'm never going to be the same again. You all can piss off and die.