Jonatha Brooke - I'll Try *Live*

I am not a child now.
I can take care of myself.
I mustn't let them down now-
Mustn't let them see me cry.
I'm fine.
I'm fine.
I'm to tired to listen.
I'm too old to believe:
All these childish stories.
There is no such thing as faith,
And trust,
And pixie dust.
I try,
But its to hard to believe.
I try,
But I can't see what you see.
I try.
I try.
I try.
My whole world is changing,
I don't know where to turn.
I can't leave you baby,
But I cant stay and watch the sitting burn;
Watch it burn.
'Cause I try,
But its so hard to believe!
I try,
But I can't see where you see.
I try.
I try.
I try and try,
To understand,
The distance in between:
The love I feel,
The things i fear,
I dearly say good dream.
I can finally see it.
Now I have to believe:
All those precious stories.
All the world is made of faith,
And trust,
And pixie dust.
So I'll try,
'Cause I finally believe!
I'll try,
'Cause I see where you see!
I'll try.
I'll try!
I'll try!
I'll try-
To fly.

Geh-heh?

Ooh, I just came back from class. 

Okay, fine, I came back about an hour ago, but never mind about that. 

Class was... alright... Snow White didn't come today. Jen-itor and Viv did, though. And of course, Sean. Doi, it's his own friggin' house.

Note to self: Do not mention the word "friggin" in front of Dad. For some reason, he hates it.

I was really tired during tuition, though. Slept when I first arrive, and I was the first to arrive. Guess what? Their maid ran away, but I don't know why. We also read the newspaper at his house about the husband who poured acid all over his wife and daughter. Yikers. The dude must seriously have issues.

We also read about how a maid died after some form of abuse. Ohh, and a really smart student who was offered a scholarship and how he died a natural death before being able to accept it.

Dang... The world is such a gruesome place... 

Yeah... Did some Science today. Sean and Jen shared my iPod. I gotta charge it now or I won't have enough time to listen to my songs. Haiz... Viv, on the other hand, was listening to her iTouch. I was just... doing work. :)

During Maths, our teacher gave us some work to do, so we did. After a while, Sean got bored and started banging keys on the calculator. So, to save the calculator's mechanical "life", I decided to make him figure out how to use the numbers 1 to 9 only once in that exact order, using only addition and subtraction and equal it to 100.

It's actually quite easy. Jen figured it out first. Sean... Hmm... I think he was frustrated, but I don't know why. Weird...

Ohh, not to mention, Nelle leant me her "Barbie" movies -_- We were all talking about all the Barbie movies for a good 1 eighth of the time we were there. Sean is actually quite knowledgeable about the Barbie movies. He knew which movie was which incident and all that. Haha. Then again, he is part girl, right? :P

Ohh, we were talking about how names were formed too. Turns out Sean's name was the updated version of Joseph. Apparently, that's what his mom wanted to call him. Haha. Ohh, and ugh, Sean's going to the camp on the 7th too. My brother's making him stay over on the 6th. I'm going to try to ignore him as much as possible.

As long as he doesn't annoy me to the max.

Listening to "Little Wonders" by Rob Thomas now. I seriously love Meet The Robinsons... and Wilbur :P 

Oh, and to Shuen, "domineering" means to "assert one's will over another in an arrogant way". An example sentence: Cathy had been a martyr to her gruff, domineering husband.

*This was picked from the Oxford Dictionary, which is sitting right in front of me :)*

I have to go soon, but the next posts will be about lyrics and videos about all the songs I've recently downloaded so far :) CIAO!!

Ah Sou?

Bleghh... I realized this actually quite some time ago, but I still can't believe it. Shmuck likes Shugo Chara. Puff-t, best part is, she keeps thinking Shuen watches that anime. Haiz... She seriously doesn't get it, does she?

Then again, it is Shmuck we're talking about :P

Sat beside Kanga in the morning assembly today. They were playing more Richard Clayderman pieces. I still intend on looking for the book -_-

After the assembly, we went back to class, obviously. Was supposed to have Sivik, but Encik Maz came in and did absolutely nothing. He ended up going out again to monitor the Gamelan dudettes, which included Danya.

Following after Sivik was Science. We all packed and went to the Science lab. I advised Kanga to take Danya's bottle. I think she had that intention too :) Took my brownie and my wallet as well. *Funny, no one calls it a "purse"* Studied Simple Machines. Guess what? I finally understand what the hell Load Distance and Effort Distance is!!

Yes, I've never known. Even during tuition, I never really knew what it was about :) I just waited for other people to get the answer. Hehe. 

Then came recess, my favourite part of school :P Ordered the Char Koay Teow because it's been so long since I ate it :) Mentos got a little retarded again and asked me if he could treat me. Haha. Of course, I didn't hold back :) I asked for the Fried Wan Tons :) I think I have to monitor my diet because these pass few days have been doing my stomach no good.

After recess was BM, but Puan Z didn't come today. *Hallelujah!! :P* But we had some really "ngok" teacher who substituted. All that time I was sitting behind with Kanga. I didn't mean to leave Shuen alone, though. I just thought I'd speak to Kanga for a while since it's been quite long since my last long conversation with her.

Wrote Flawless Hearts too. Haha. You should've seen Brandyy and Chucky's face when they saw. They've been wanting to read it for a very long time now :)

Yeah, but the teacher was seriously tight-assed. Know what? I'll call him Mr. Tightass from now on, since it describes him perfectly. He keeps scolding us even though we didn't really do anything wrong. It was just singing, for Snowy's sake, what the hell is your problem? I don't know the teacher's name, that's why I can't really mention it :)

Even Shuen got really pissed with the teacher. She tried her best to make as much noise as she could :P No joke, she seriously can get angry when she wants to :P

Kanga was hilarious as usual, though. Kept making me laugh. -_- But whaddaya expect from her? She's got Cleo as a friend :P Gave Shuen my brownie though, because I didn't have the appetite anymore. She really wanted it anyway :)

After the first period of BM, another substitute teacher came in. This one wasn't so bad. She didn't really scold us or anything, just when we were going overboard. Yeah... Continued Flawless Hearts during that time. It ended soon and then it was Moral. Our teacher came in and so did the students from other classes, but dang, everyone started throwing paper balls at each other.

It got to the extent where Puan Fadz came in and rotan-ed all the boys that were involved in that "game". But it was unfair to them because some guys played but said they didn't. There were also some really annoying girls who played, but they didn't own up. Tch, what cowards.

After Moral was BI -_- Handed in the articles that I was supposed to do yesterday and got asked to get some Literature books from Puan A's room. Turns out we had to do three Literature questions. One was describing the relationship between any two characters in the Phantom of The Opera, second was a scene in the book which frightens me and thirdly, why would I recommend it to other people.

Well, there's no problem with the first question. I described the relationship between Christine and the Phantom. Everyone wanted to do Raoul and Christine but to me, it was so boring, so I did something else. 

Now, for the second problem, I was in quite a stitch. Well, you can't blame me, right? I don't exactly feel there's anything in the book which "frightens" me. Tch, bleghh... As for the third question, all the more, because it's such a short story, so it's quite boring. It can't even keep me occupied for long -_-

But I did it anyway. By the way, I think Puan A think too highly of me. I was forced *glares at Chucky* to read what I wrote for the first one. Know what she said before that? "Let hers be a good example for all of you." -_- Yikers. Too much praise. 

And even after I got some minor glitches in my essay, she gave me 8/10. I bet if I did Raoul and Christine, Lord knows what she would've said :P

Cheh, I'm perasan-ing too much now.

Yeah... So I just came back from school. Ate lunch at Jun Kee's. Not bad. Came back, bathed, watched the TV for a little while, then came downstairs to use the computer. Watched the fourth episode of Inuyasha Kanketsu-Hen :) Damn cool :P 

Now I'm blogging, for one, and Shuen made me listen to two songs. One from KARA - "Good Day" and "Romantic" from ShiNEE. I also downloaded some new songs. "I'll Try" from Jonatha Brooke. *No, I didn't miss out an "N", her name really is Jonatha* And another song - "It's Your Love" from Tim McGraw and Faith Hill.

Not bad :)

All aren't so bad. I actually don't mind the ShiNEE song. Shuen's also making me listen to "Heaven" by F.T Island.

*Ooh, I'm eating chicken now :P*

Alrighty then. I think I'll stop for now. Have to go to tuition in half an hour. CIAO!!

Extraodinaire Instrument De Musique~

Ola! This is a must-see. Credits to Lina who posted this video on her Facebook :)

Kowai~

Scary~~

Guess what? The weirdest happened to Kanga today. It was during someone substituted our class that Puan Z came in and asked for Kanga. When she went out, I spotted a lady and a man outside. I recognized the lady as her mother.

Hmm...

The first thing that came into my mind was, "What did Kanga do now?"

Haha.

The man, I didn't know.

It went on for quite a while before she finally came back in. Turned out her mother got a call from her office saying Kanga had called and said someone was going to beat her up!!

-_-

Now, Kanga was with us all the time, so obviously, she wouldn't be able to make a call. However, her mother specifically said that Kanga had called and said she was being beaten up! I mean, what the hell? Why would anyone wanna beat her up? *I mean, I could think of a few reasons, but that's not the point!! :P*

Best part was, when her mom asked "Who is this?", the caller replied, "Aiya! It's me la! It's me! Hurry up! I'm going to get beaten up!"

"Where are you?"

"I also don't know!"

-_- Suspicious.

And to think that the person knew Kanga's mom's office number was just too weird. And Kanga doesn't know anyone who knows her mom's office number either, so it's just the weirdest thing to have her call and say Kanga's about to get belasah-ed.

It couldn't have been Chucky, cause she was with us the whole time, she can't speak Chinese, and she doesn't know Kanga's mom's phone number.

It couldn't have been me either, because of the same reasons as Chucky.

It couldn't have been Danya because of the same reasons as Chucky and I.

It couldn't have been Brandyy, cause she was in the class the whole time and she doesn't know Kanga's mom's phone number.

It couldn't have been Shuen because of the same reasons as Brandyy.

The only person Kanga can think of who has a possible grudge towards her and knows her mom's office number is her boyfriend, Nicky. However, it couldn't have been him because number one, I don't know if he knows Cantonese and the caller, I heard from Kanga, was a girl. So unless Nicky was a transvestite, he couldn't have called Kanga's mom.

I'm kinda worried for her. I mean, who and why the hell would anyone wanna lie and say Kanga was getting beaten up?

Hmm... -_- *Thinking real hard*

Oh well, I hope it doesn't happen again. For the sake of Kanga and her mom, may the person who called them refrain from doing so again. :)

That aside, today was Monday. -_- Grr... I hate Mondays. Number one, because we have the morning assembly, which consists of singing the four irritating songs, listening to the irritating teachers-on-duty as well as listen to our "dear" headmistress crap about stuff.

However, the player got a little crazy today, so we had to sing the school song without the music. Oh, and just so you know, school song *minus* music = disaster.

Ugh... There were people singing out of tune, out of pitch and off time. -_- God, it's like we were all born tone deaf -_-

Sejarah was okay. We're about to finish the last chapter. Brought my chocolate brownie from Famous Amos yesterday to school and shared with Kanga, Cleo, Danya, Chucky and Shuen. Danya brought some cupcakes too, so we all got our fair share :) I took the last one because I thought I'd give one to my brother. 

Ugh, since when did I become such a softie? :P

Yeah, recess was fun. Anyways, after that was English. Puan A made us summarize a newspaper article. Oh, that reminds me, I was supposed to hand the articles in but I forgot -_- Haiz... I helped Xuan a bit and paired up with Shuen.

Finished in time :) Obviously :P

Ohh, and before I forget, I'm sorry I didn't blog yesterday. I didn't have time and I was occupied with something else, so I'll update now :) Went to Sungei Wang with my parents, brother and aunt. My mom went to Chambers to get some music books when we saw a really big crowd around the centre hall. My parents saw someone they knew and asked about the commotion.

Turns out Lee Min Ho (Gu Jun Pyo from Boys Over Flowers) was making some appearance to promote some cosmetics. My parents' friend's child/children wanted to see him -_- I tried to see too, but everyone had already booked the available areas -_-

The only way I could look was to ride the escalator down and up again -_- And that also, he wasn't there. Haiz... Turns out it was either too late, or he only appeared when we ate at Esquire Kitchen. My brother saw loads of his school mates in Sungei Wang that day just to see Min Ho. I mean, yeah, he's popular and all that, but I really detested him in Boys Over Flowers. I only liked the heroine. -_-

Yeah, so I couldn't really care less about him. They were having an autograph session below too, but if I had to wait for more than half an hour just to get a signature from him, I'd rather not waste my time.

Now, if it was DBSK, then it would be different :P

And seriously, why Min Ho? Why not Hyun Joong? Or the whole of SS501? That would make my sister boil with jealousy :P 

Yeah. That's pretty much it. At around 7 something, we went back home. Used the computer a little, typed Unwanted Desire on the laptop, stuff the song "Little Wonders" by "Rob Thomas" into my iPod. It's my current fave song right now from Meet The Robinsons. Have I mentioned how much I loved that cartoon? I could watch it over and over and over again :) I love Wilbur. He's so cute!! :P

Even now, I'm listening to "Little Wonders" :)

I'll post the lyrics and video up soon :)

Alrighty then. I shall stop here for now. This is a really, really, really long post. If I have anything new to update on, I shall do so in another post :) CIAO!!

Tanjobi Omedetto!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANYA!!!

I'm really glad you liked the present :) I'll say it one more time though, it was not easy finding all those pictures. I had to go to this person's Facebook and that person's Facebook~ Not to mention the amount of blogs I had to scour just to find pictures!! :P

But I'm glad you liked it. So that means all my efforts weren't wasted :) Ohh, and I'm glad you liked the poem too. For fun, I'll just post it up here :)

Happy, happy birthday

That's what I wanna say

Do you like this present?

I hope you think it's decent

This day comes once a year

So you should hold it dear

Bear in mind, you're 14 once

Don't waste away this month

Since it's not a crime

I'll say it one more time

Enjoy this present, 'kay?

And happy 14th birthday!!

:)

Nice, no? I even laminated the paper I stuck it on. No joke. It cost me a bomb!! :P

I wanted to print and laminate the picture collage too, but didn't manage to. Sorry :)

Sean's coming over in a moment. -_- He's got to finish his Theory work. And so do I :P Our class was pushed earlier to 4:15 today so we get only two hours and 15 minutes to do our work and at the same time, chat with Sakura on Skype :)

Which reminds me, I've got to Skype with her now. We Skype-d earlier, but we had to stop cause I thought we had English class but my brother cancelled it. Unfortunately, I had to do some other stuff, so I couldn't tell Sakura, but now I'm going to sign in to MSN :)

So for now, CIAO!!

Uh-oh...

You know, I just found out: Sean reads my blog.

That ain't good -_-

No wait, now I don't have to waste my breath, I can just type that he's a stray dog without having to tell it to his face.

Mwahaha.

That aside, I went to school today to give Danya her present. Well, it's not exactly her present, it's just her poem and her card. :) But she said "Thank you" anyway. Haha. She saw that email about the collage I sent her but she's not allowed to see it till tomorrow. Mwakaka. I'm so mean...

I don't know if Shuen's seen the mail yet. She didn't go to school today. Don't know why. Wasted... Since I couldn't give her the poem -_-

School was boring, as usual. I ate at the Ko-op with Danya and Kanga today. Met Maria, Andyy, Dina, Yuki and Nahd on the way, though we ate at separate places.

Oh, but during Science, we all got these notes from the teacher about Simple Machines and we *Kanga, Danya, Ihm and I* started reciting the statements all in different accents. At first, I had a French accent *imitating the Pink Panther* but after that, Danya took over cause she couldn't do a British accent. So I took a Texan accent instead :P Kanga did a China-apek accent. Haha.

Ihm did an Australian imitation and I must say, he's quite good. Ohh, and he started all his "romance" talk after that. You know, the ones like, "Do you have a map? Cause I'm lost in your eyes" or "Stop thief! You stole my heart!" or "Are you hurt? Cause I saw you fall from heaven" and all that -_-

Ugh, what the hell, man.

After recess, we all sang Danya a Happy Birthday song. Dhan gave her a present too! :P It was a box with these Australian Pelicans that he bought when he was in Australia. Dang, he must've thought about her birthday then! :P Oooh!!! :P

Kanga got her some potpourri and I already told you what I did for her, right? I'll post the poem up here if I've got the time.

Other than that, it was quite okay. I'm going to be going to the PGRM side with Maria from every Friday now because she has to wait there every Friday. Wee~ :P

Kanga and Cleo weren't with us cause they followed Danya. Yeah, whatever.

Got semi-pissed with my brother and Sean today but got over it soon. I decided it's not Sean's problem, but a problem with me. I don't know, there's just something wrong with me. Yeah... For some reason, he just annoys me. -_- I'll continue the stray-dog calling, though :P

Sakura called Sean today. Puff-t, whatever. They spoke a little while before the phone was passed to me. Haiz... I don't care already, dude. They can do whatever. That aside, Sean and my brother were playing with the PS2 for the amount of time I was on the phone with Sakura. Before that, I was in my room, using my sister's iPod speakers and blastin' music whilst I sang as loud as I wanted.

Haha. Releasing stress, so... :)

Did you know stress can make you fat?

*Looks at my body and shrugs :P*

Alrighty then. I'll stop here for now. CIAO!!

Hontoni Hontoni HONTONI GOMEN!!!

SORRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To Shuen, that is, because I didn't come to school today. You see, it started when my maid came to wake me up and I heard my aunt ask, "Daddy ask you need to go to school or not, today? If no need to go then no need to go la."

So my brother also skipped school together with me -_- Sorry Shuen! I didn't mean to purposely not go! It's just that the turn of events concluded to my brother and I not attending school. So Shuen, I'm really, really, really sorry I left you alone in school today!! If I knew I would skip school today, I would've told you yesterday!!

I'm so sorry!!

* * *

I actually practiced today. I took all my books out to the shop and practiced there in my usual studio. After that, I thionked some melodies and then went to the optician to check on my eyesight. 

Ah... I've gone up 75 -_- I'll be collecting my specs lens tomorrow at around 4 something. Ooh, and I'm also about to go out and get Danya's present. Her birthday's on Saturday but I'm gonna give it to her tomorrow. :) 

Snowy's extra cute today :) That was random :P

Ugh, that reminds me. That stray dog's coming for class with my mom today. Begs I not be there when he arrives cause he always drives my mom upside down. Haiz... :P

I actually spent very little time on the computer today. My brother was using it most of the time. Ooh, and we both watched "Catch That Kid" on Channel 413. You know, the one where Max Thieriot, Kristen Stewart and Corbin Bleu starred in. Haha.

The baby's so annoying :P

Also, my specs which has always been loose *I keep forgetting to go and tighten it* was tightened today when I went to see the optician. Thank God. It always made it feel as if I had an extra large head. :P

I am definitely going to school tomorrow. Yes, guaranteed. I need to go tomorrow no matter what. I need to apologize to Shuen :) 

P/S: Che, kuku wants to know when you're coming back. The date, I mean. :)

Oooh, I forgot to mention -_- Before we watched "Catch That Kid", we were watching "Balls of Fury". Hey, there wasn't anything else on at the point of time. I already watched that episode of Mr. Bean, so there was no other choice. I wasn't gonna watch "Chowder" on Cartoon Network now, was I? :P

Yeah~ 

Ooh... Haha. I'm gonna make everyone sing Danya a Happy Birthday song tomorrow after recess, like what I did with Brandyy and Shuen :) So get ready, Danya!! :P

Okay then. I gotta ciao now. CIAO!!

Kino, Kyou, Ashita

Today was... Well, boring. I didn't go to school because of the anugerah thingy but I had to get up at 9 something today because my grandparents and E E Nan were coming. My dad used the "claw" tactic to get me up. -_-

Ate breakfast at the Sun Fatt restaurant. Had two half-boiled eggs with steamed bread. Yumm. And also, I finished whatever my aunt couldn't of her portion of food :)

My parents then went out somewhere with our grandparents and E E Nan. I used the computer and my brother played basketball. After that, he used the computer whilst I played the piano. At around 1 something, my mom called asking us to get ready to go out for lunch at De Maw Guan. 

Lunch was fantastic as always in De Maw Guan. Came back really full and used the computer for a while before having class with Puan Roh. In between class, my parents and aunt went out. My brother then came back and brought back a stray dog with him.

Of course, it wasn't a stray dog, it's just someone I refer to as a stray dog. *It's Sean* :P

After class, my teacher went back home and I used the computer again. My brother and Sean are using the PS2 that I fixed. He didn't even say thank you. Tch, but what do you expect? I wasn't expecting much from him anyway.

And now I'm watching Tsubasa's second season on animeseason.com as well as reading manga. I'm going to school tomorrow, unfortunately, cause I have some interview with the Editorial Board. Urgh... I don't wanna go~

That's about all I can come up with. CIAO!!

* * *

Did you know "Today" was formed from "Yesterday" and "Tomorrow"? "To" from "Tomorrow" and "Day" from "Yesterday". The first and the last syllables of these two words formed the word "Today", which is in between.

So live every "Today" to the fullest. It plays an important role because it makes up for the past and maps out your future.

Genuine Asshole

You're a real asshole, you know that? Don't talk to me ever again, okay? Since you think everything that comes out of my mouth is a lie anyway. Don't tell me anything. Don't listen to whatever I say. Help yourself on Saturdays. Sit beside the other girl. Unless you give a little respect to what I do to save your friggin' ass, your ass can be fried.

You never even say thank you. You never say you're grateful. You only say it reluctantly when I demand it. You're never sincere. So why should I help you, huh? Why should I risk people knowing I'm acquainted with someone like you if all you do is discard me after I do anything that helps you? You know what? Just don't talk to me anymore.

You're a real genuine asshole.

* * *

Went to tuition at 6:05 p.m. Walked to tuition today because my dad wasn't feeling well enough to send me with the car. Yeah... And it started drizzling as well just before I reached Sean's house. So unlucky :P

Did some Science... Jen-itor didn't come to tuition today cause he thought there wasn't any tuition. Hmm... It's just like him to do something like that, no? The Science questions nearly drove me crazy because I didn't feel like studying at all. After that, we did some Math questions. Sean nearly made me strangle him because he made such idiotic mistakes. Haiz... But whaddaya expect from someone like him?

Not much, exactly.

I also made him ferry Viv to her car since it was raining. Haha. I was like, "C'mon! Be a man! What kind of guy makes a girl walk in the rain?!" And he really did his best to find an umbrella so she wouldn't get wet. Nicky and I were behind clapping and coo-ing :P

I called my mom with Nicky's phone too and my aunt picked up, saying my mom was going to fetch me. At first, I asked for an umbrella, then I decided I would make Sean ferry me out as well, but...

Nahh... Of course, I still told my aunt not to bring an umbrella. Who cares? I'm not going to school tomorrow, so it doesn't matter if my hair gets rained on. Nicky and Sean kept fighting. Sean didn't want to ferry me out, obviously. Nicky didn't either, so I did them both a favor and walked out on my own.

I wasn't going to try anymore. It just wastes my breath. If he hates everything there is to do with me, I'll just hate him too. No biggy :)

It's much easier to hate him anyway, since I hate him so much already. Haha.

Though, at home, I blew my top because he wanted me to do something and I didn't want to. He could do it himself. I'm not his messenger. I hate it when he tells me to do stuff and doesn't even thank me. Yes, he says "please", but only because he knows I'll say no if he doesn't.

But like I said, what do I care?

Everyone seems to be pissing me off today. Sean pissed me off. My brother pissed me off. And now my mom pisses me off. I already told her I was finding the effing CD. Why the hell can't she just WAIT whilst I find it? Does she have to threaten me all the time? She always has to use the computer against me just because I'm a little late in whatever she orders me to do.

You all have to make me cry don't you? You just love watching me writhe in pain and suffering, don't you?

I'm not exactly a robot, okay? I'm human too.

But obviously, there are people around me who think I'm just some pathetic tool to use and throw after that.