まだやったね

I knew you wouldn't fail me.

I just knew it.

I knew it was going to be just weeks before you pissed me off again.

And now you've done it.

Exactly what is wrong with you?

Alright, let me just get this straight: You like to scold people?

You don't understand, do you? Of course you don't. You never take the time to understand. You have all kinds of presumptions about us not doing our jobs properly that you fail to see sense even when it's smack dab in front of you.

"You tak pernah collect duit denda atau tak pernah buat duty?"

Wardy is a hardworking, smart and dedicated girl. She has done nothing wrong to the library. She has always done her work.

Why is it you can't see that?

Let me clear things up right here and now (though you'll never read this, probably): Nobody comes to return/borrow books to/from the library on Fridays. Everyone goes home at 12:30p.m. No living soul except for those on duty come to the library on Fridays.

Accept that fact.

Engrave it into that large microchipped brain of yours. Aren't you smart enough to figure the rest out? If nobody returns any books on that day, how the hell are we supposed to collect any duit denda? It's literally non-existent.

But you don't get that?

Why?

"It's impossible."

Impossible? Impossible? How the f*ck would you know?? Have you ever stayed back on a Friday to investigate? That's the operative word here. Investigate. Did you? So if you've never once tried to see our situation on Fridays, how the f*ck would you know that it's impossible?

Don't gimme that shit. Just because there's money to collect on other days, it doesn't mean that it's the same with Friday. Bloody shit kind of deduction that is.

But alright, let's say there are people who actually come to return or borrow books from the library. You're assuming that everyone will return their books late.

I-I'm sorry, but did that turn into a custom sometime when I was... hmm, I dunno, asleep?? Or maybe it happened in between blinks. You tell me. I'm just so duh right now.

Or maybe you practice it? Do you? Do you intentionally hold on to borrowed books just so you can have the joy and excitement (not to mention exhilaration) when you pay librarians money?

Some people actually return their books on time. Some people would actually like to keep their money in their pockets, not throw it around like maybe you have the capacity to.

Stop judging things by how you want to see it.

"Takkan don't know how many years until now also no duit denda."

Okay, I don't know what kind of logic you're basing this on, but last time I checked, the HO Friday last year wasn't Wardy.

It was someone else.

So instead of just blaming it on the unfortunate person who just happened to land the job this year, why don't you go waste your time interrogating other "suspects" like last year's HO Friday or 2010's HO Friday?

Go up to them (shouldn't matter that they're seniors, right?) and demand for their year's duit denda if you insist upon it so much.

And can Wardy help it if people dislike staying back on Fridays so much? She can't exactly make people borrow or return books now, can she? Doubt you could do it either.

Think before you speak.

"I don't know why right, our librarians, tegur a little bit also cry already."

That's the grand finale. Honestly. Hats off to the best bullshitter in history.

Do you understand what is tegur? It means to advise someone to do the right thing when they're doing something wrong. You're not advising. You're chastising. You're reprimanding. You're not even trying to be nice.

Like I said, you don't understand. You don't get the difference between being stern and scolding. You think you're being stern, but you're not. You're downright scolding. Even the incident with Wing. You couldn't fathom why she started crying because you think you weren't doing anything wrong.

For a person with a brain, you sure act like you don't have one.

People already hate you and you're not doing anything about it. Unless you can really understand why it is that people start crying when you open that stupid mouth of yours, you'll never gain the hearts of the other librarians.

And I'll never stop posting things like this.

Yes, maybe I'm dumb. Maybe I don't get your "stress" (whatever you call stress). But at least when I'm pissed with something, I don't take it out on other people. I don't push my responsibilities to my underlings. I don't treat people as if they were pawns in a chess game and I was the king piece.

The probates are Karis' job. The librarians are Jiunn's job. What are you? The figurehead, sure. And as long as you keep thinking that as a Prez, that's what you're supposed to do, you'll never be a leader.

A real leader.

End of rave.

Till the next time you piss me off.

不当な

Today's million-dollar question: How unreasonable can an average person get?

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Okay, honestly, I didn't think it could get any more out of hand than this.

I'm surprised I actually kept quiet about this.

Number one: You tell me two days before the event that I'm supposed to make a banner?

Number two: You tell me two days before the event that I'm supposed to make a banner?

Number three: You tell me two days before the event that I'm supposed to make a banner?

You think Ting and I are miracle workers is it? It's either that or you think we're that reliable. It's highly unlikely for it to be the latter, so exactly what is it that you're thinking?

I mean, I get it, you know? You want it such that when they come see the place, it'll be all done up nicely to show that we're welcoming them, but you don't - can't - expect us to be able to finish something as delicate as a banner in less than two days.

How are we going to get it to the factory in time?

How are we going to hang it in time?

If you want something to be hung in front of the entrance when they come in, I'm sure we can think of a better way, right?

Why do you have to be so... retarded?

Are you sure you got the right position?

Of course you can say "It's just a banner". You're not the one doing it. You don't have to print the stuff and all that, do you now?

After school, that's when you told me. Not at the beginning of the week. Not a week before. You decide to tell me only today, when the Japanese are coming on Friday.

To tell you the truth, though, I didn't think it was stupid until Ting called me. I guess I'm just a little too... obedient. In a sense that I don't like not doing stuff that my superiors tell me. Even so, I can see the illogicality of the whole thing now.

Do you know how much paper I have to waste? What's more, we're only using it for a few minutes - half an hour, at the most.

I'm part of the buddy programme. I'm part of the deco team. I'm a librarian.

I want to do the best I can for everything, but I can't do that with you breathing down my neck and asking me to do the impossible.

End of rant.

Till the next time you piss me of.

なさけない

For God's sake, why don't you bloody get a life? There's only so much we can stand if we're stuck with you for the rest of the year.

Why can't you just be a little nicer?

We're not asking you to jump off a cliff or drown in a tub, are we? What we want is a little respect and trust from you.

But instead, you turn us all into your enemies.

Do you REALLY want to be hated that badly?

Making your own decisions, planning your own ideas, fine. We can bloody deal with that. What we can't deal with, is you saying that the reason you're doing so is because no one else is capable of it.

Why don't you go screw yourself?

We're all inexperienced and young. If you don't give proper guidance, who the f*ck will help you? I don't care if you think we can do it just because you can; not everyone was born with Einstein's brain.

Saying that you gave us work to do is just some kind of an excuse so you can take it out on us, isn't it? You want to see if we can do it in time and then judge us by what you see.

F*ck off.

No one wants that kind of bullshit attitude.

Scolding us isn't going to get you anywhere. It'll only make matters worse. Are you trying to make us scared of you? 'Cause if that's it, you're bloody failing, because all it's doing is making us secretly hate you.

Bloody hell, I don't think I'm even hiding it.

You can sack me if you want. But the only reason I'm sticking by this is because I love it too much to let it be run entirely by you. Plus, my pride's at stake. After being so fashionably christened my job, I don't want to be found abandoning it on the first month of the year.

I'd really like to have one verbal showdown with you before I leave school. I want to see you cringe in fear, knowing what real intimidation feels like. I want you to know what f*ckery you put us all through. And I want you to know damn well that brains aren't the only things that matter in life, because there are people who rely on their hearts instead.

So what if you can handle things by yourself? So what if you have to face teachers everyday who have complaints and are not happy with us? And so bloody what if you think we're useless and unreliable?

Let me say JUST-ONE-THING.

Nobody asked you to get this job.

Not happy? Just quit.

But don't take it out on us.