Stand - Rascal Flatts

You feel like a candle in a hurricane
Just like a picture with a broken frame
Alone and helpless like you've lost your fight
But you'll be alright
You'll be alright

Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause it's all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off
Then you stand
Then you stand

Life's like a novel with the end ripped out
The edge of a canyon with only one way down
Take what you're given before its gone
Start holding on, keep holding on

Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause it's all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off
Then you stand (then you stand)
Yea, then you stand (then you stand)

Everytime you get up
And get back in the race
One more small piece of you
Starts to fall into place, yea
Ooohhh

Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause it's all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off
Then you stand (then you stand)
Then you stand (then you stand)
Yea, then you stand (then you stand)
Yea (then you stand)
Ohhh (then you stand)
Ohhh (then you stand)
Ohhh (then you stand)
Ohhh (then you stand)
Then you stand

問題

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let 'em out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone

Still harder gettin' up,
Gettin' dressed,
Livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over

I would trade, give away
All the words that I saved
In my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
(Much to say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do, oh
Oh yeah

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
(To say)
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Not seein' that lovin' you
That's what I was trying to do...

* * *

To think I could relate.

Screw it - 14/11/09

Screw the effing promise, if I don't blog about this now, I'll never get around to doing it.

I'm so effing pissed. Yeah, sure, I actually had a tinge of fun today and I got to eat really nice food *not to mention, I cooked some too* but that's not the point.

It just had to happen today and there of all the effing places. Could you not have chosen a better day and time to come?

No, I didn't have my menstrual cycle -_-

I'm talking about the stupid fever. Right as we were playing some game, it came. I felt so God-forsaken-ly fever-ish that I think I was crying. After the games *which I thanked God for* I had to go to the toilet and rest before going back out.

Nobody noticed. That's actually quite irritating considering the fact I was gone for quite a while. Then again, who cares? It's not like I'll ever be missed anyway.

Yes, I'm really pissed off. Not only that, but the effing fan was blowing so fast, the fever came back almost immediately after I came out of the toilet.

By the way, Viv came, Ginny came and so did Miche, which was good, since I haven't seen Ginny and Miche for a very long time.

Met a new person too. Dan. He's quite interesting, actually. Super tall dude. 195 cm. Older than us, of course. He guessed Ginny and I were 15. Haha. We get that all the time. Worse, sometimes. Can you believe it? A relative thought I was 24 years old. Pah.

So, if you asked me if I had a good time, I have to say that not the whole time was good. I was there since 2 something. Helped make the tuna sandwiches and the spaghetti made my right hand really ache. It was hurt the whole time the rest of the day went by.

But like I said, nobody noticed.

Not even my brother noticed, so what do I have to complain about?

I think there were about a several times I started tearing. Going to the toilet didn't help, even though I relieved my tears. It was seriously eff-ed up. And I really tried to get out of the games. Viv asked me to accompany her and I would have, but Sean's dad said if we both came out, the others would follow.

Monkey see, monkey do.

So I ended up having to play and try my best to keep myself from falling unconscious. I really seriously, nearly fell unconscious. Having everyone shout and all that didn't help either, but add more misery by giving me a head ache.

I thought the day couldn't get any worse. Guess what?

They started playing basketball in the house. More head ache. Thanks so much for bestowing upon me the marvelous gift. My arms were cold, my legs were cold, I had to blow into my T-shirt to get myself warm, but why would anyone care?

Haiz...

That's all. I've had enough. Ciao.

ARIGATO HAYLIE-CHAN!

God bless you, Haylie. Thank you so much for telling me about the seni exam tomorrow and telling me what choices there were. Seriously, screw all the teachers who re-scheduled the exams again. They just find it so amusing to change the exam dates again and again and again, don't they?

I tried to study for Seni - I borrowed Sean's book when I went to his house at 5 o'clock. Why so early? My brother wanted to go to his house, so I tagged along, since I would get tempted by the computer if I stayed home.

Didn't work - the studying, I mean. For one, I read, of course, but the answers provided for the questions are different from what the notes said. I didn't know which one to follow so I gave up.

Studied Science and did Maths today, obviously. Got Viv addicted to "Love Like This". Haha. Did Simple Machines for Science and Ratios for Maths. Not exactly what I wanted, cause I wanted to revise Form 1 stuff. Never mind, though, I'll just study hard at home.

Was raining after class today so I made Sean "ferry" Viv out :P It's so cute!! He didn't want to, but I made him. "What gentleman makes a lady walk in the rain??" I asked. His mom also said that. Mwakaka.

Ugh, but she wanted Sean to ferry me out too, so before that happened, I quickly put my slippers on and ran out.

Am I supposed to go for his party?

Oh, and this hiatus might take quite a while, because I'm going to force myself not to touch the computer. I won't even charge my iPod. If the battery's low, I'll ask my brother to charge it for me. I have to divert my attention to my schoolbooks. Especially since I'm not fairing so well in my Geography and Sejarah. I mean, yeah, I can understand, but that's not the point.

The Form 1 syllabus is the problem.

And then we've got Science and Maths. Crap. This is so bad. Plus, for Sivik, we have to study all the tokoh and the Tema 6 Mutiara Kata. I've got some of them down, but I don't know about the rest.

Then there's PJ -_- Damn it.

I'm not saying "Crap, I should've studied earlier", since I knew this was gonna be the result. Sulking and regretting won't get me anywhere. Tomorrow, I'm going to bring my Komsas books and Geography to study.

This is the last time I'm blogging for quite a while, so I'll just go quick. Finished "Her Majesty's Dog". It's damn cute and the ending's damn unsatisfying -_- Well, cause there's no continuation, but other mangas are the same, so never mind.

Love Hyoue, he's so cute :P

Yeah, went to the market with my aunt today because I couldn't sleep after Kanga called telling me I had to go to school for some Etika Makan thing. It's not like I didn't want to go, okay? My mom was sick and my dad couldn't send me. So even if it was in the morning, it was a "fixed" thing for me to skip school.

I just wished my friends told me earlier so we could plan stuff out.

Never mind. No use crying over spilled milk anyway. Thank you, Kanga, for bothering to call me. Sorry you ended up wasting your money cause I couldn't come. Thank you, Brandyy, for letting me know about what other subjects are for the rest of the days.

Looks like I'll have to review "Her Majesty's Dog" when the holidays come. Sorry for being so abrupt :) It won't be for long.

Wish me luck everyone, cause I'm gonna need it.

CIAO!!

Gambatte!!

Good luck for students taking exams in four days' time. Tch, eff the teachers who developed brain tumors. Scheduling exams on the last few days of school is just retarded. You think that's gonna keep us from cutting school?

Exhibit A just proved you wrong!

:P

That aside, I gotta go study soon. Am going to study Geography first, then Sejarah, then Science, then Maths, PJ, Sivik and then get stuff prepared for Art. Ugh, can you believe it? I'm having Sejarah and English on the same day -_- Friday's only BM. Tuesday's English and Sejarah. Wednesday~ Yeah, I'll ask my friends :P 

But I know Art is on the very last day of school. Can I just screw that? No wait, it affects which class I'm going to next year.

I'm torn between the classes, though. Don't ever wanna get into first class but second class is an all-girls class, which means the teachers would start nagging when we get just a tad bit too loud. Haiz...

Today was exhausting as usual. It's Monday, remember? Skipped school. Haven't studied yet, cause I've been practicing the whole day. My shoulders are sore and my fingers are typing slower than usual. My legs are a little cramped *probably cause of my weight, but never mind* and I have to accompany Snuffles later.

Made a song for her :P But never mind. I'll post just the piano accompaniment if I'm feeling up to it. If not, too bad :P Better if you never hear it anyway. Haha.

I love Snuffles, I love Snuffles, I love Snuffles, I love Snuffles, I love Snuffles.

I love Snowy, I love Snowy, I love Snowy, I love Snowy, I love Snowy.

Yeah, I LOVE YOU!!! 10x :P

Oh, and once again, I love Snowy :) Ooh, speaking of dogs, "Her Majesty's Dog" is really nice. The manga, that is. The guy's damn cute and the girl's pretty too. The storyline's kinda interesting and I haven't gotten bored of it yet. 

Got bored of Hana Kimi. It was long, so I thought I'd try it, but nahh. It was long-winded and I didn't get half the stuff mentioned in there. 

Will post a review for them both soon. 

Guess what I'm watching now, by the way? The Wizards of Waverly Place Movie. It's out on Youtube. I didn't feel like waiting for the 22nd of November to watch it on Disney Channel, so... Yeah...

Will ciao now then. Nothing much has happened. Got a little angry with my mom because I was sent to get some Peptamen thing for my grandma but the dude said it hasn't come in yet. Best part was, when I came back, she told me I was supposed to go to the other pharmacy *the one my mom STOPPED going to* -_- Yeah, tell me next year, mom.

Didn't get to Skype with my sister today. She couldn't. We chatted, though, and my brother pissed the both of us off -_- Don't know if she's coming on later, though. Chatted with Ngai today too. You know, from MC? Yeah, I'm returning next year. Am waiting for my mom to call and ask if there are any free places. Guess what? Sean's coming too -_- Bleghh... Won't be able to study -_-

My brother's joining MC too. For his own form studies, of course.

Alrighty then. If anything else comes up, I'll blog, but for now, CIAO!!

Good Morning Call

Yes, I just finished the manga for "Good Morning Call." This manga consists of 56 chapters and I managed to finish it within two days -_- Yikers :P

This story is mainly about some misunderstandings with some real estate agencies that led to Yoshikawa Nao and Uehara Hisashi living together. If that's not bad enough, Hisashi apparently has a number *large number, though* of fans who think that Hisashi is "Everyone's Hisashi", meaning he can't have a girlfriend.

However, living together has made Nao and Hisashi quite acquainted, so when things get ugly, in order to save Nao, Hisashi declares her his girlfriend.

And as every normal manga, the both of them fall in love -_- 

Anyways, this story... It's got some good elements inside, but I find there are a number of unnecessary parts. I can't really pinpoint them, but you'd feel a tad bored when you get to the ending. Plus, the problem near the end was resolved too fast.

Unlike the other mangas like Kitchen Princess or High School Debut *or Rurouni Kenshin, for that matter*, this story's ending is satisfying, but the problem was solved too quickly. It's as if the manga has to be hurried to finish -_-

Another bad point is the fact that the characters don't have a lot of variety, meaning they don't have their own special traits. Translated: Everyone looks the same. You can only differentiate those who have particular characteristics such as curly hair, short hair, long hair or a little on the chubby side. Other than that, it seems as if the cartoons were doubling as the minor characters as well.

I couldn't even differentiate the antagonist and the protagonist at one point -_-

But this story is funny and if you don't mind spending your time reading manga like this, then I guess you can try it :) CIAO!!

Owari Desu

Haiz... I've just finished reading the Rurouni Kenshin manga. Damn, Yahiko looked damn hot when he grew up. Kaoru looked better last time, though, but she still looked good. Kenji's cute, but I don't like the fact he hates Kenshin.

Ahh... Kenshin cut his hair and he looks damn good~ :P

Sano... Yeah, they didn't get a pic of him when he grew up, but he still looked good before anyway. Tsubame looks much prettier and she wears more... How do you say... modern waitress clothes. Hmm... -_-

I'm starting another manga. It's called "Good Morning Call" but I don't know if it's nice or not. Haven't seen much of it. The drawing attracted me, so I thought I'd give it a go. The storyline was interesting too.

Damn, as I had said just now, the manga is always better than the anime. At least Kenshin didn't die in the manga. Bleghh...

*Pause*

Haha. I just went to the toilet and I was afraid my brother would snatch the computer, but he's watching Bleach in the room, so I think he won't bother me for a while. He's watching the part where that arrow guy's fighting that really stupid woman at Aizen's hideout. That part was hilarious, especially that hollow who was with him. His name escapes me -_-

Alrighty then. I'll stop here. Will post a review for "Good Morning Call" soon. CIAO!!

P/S: Yes, I will study soon :P

Manga No Houga Ii

Seriously, I think the manga is always better than the anime. Why can't the anime follow the Rurouni Kenshin more? It's so much more interesting and intriguing, so why the hell is it necessary for them to alter it?

I mean, even for Inuyasha, Rave or other animes, it's the same thing all over again.

*Pause*

Mwakaka. My dad was trying to read what I just wrote -_- And I went all dramatic on him because he was trying to break my neck :P I'm still reading Rurouni Kenshin. I'm at the part where Kaoru was taken to Enishi's place.

Have I ever mentioned I hate him and his sister, Tomoe? Yeah, I think I have.

I hate them to no end. Yeah... But it's sad how depressed Kenshin was. He went to this "death" place where one person goes when all hope is lost. Yikers. Even after getting sucker-punched by Sano and Misao, he didn't budge.

Imagine his reaction when he finds out Kaoru's alive.

*Mind wanders*

Haha. It'd be priceless. I was so shocked when "Kaoru" died. I was just about to blog about how the Samurai X anime was MUCH better than the manga when I read a little more. Haha. Now it's manga rules all over again :P

Just came back from walking in the night market. My parents wanted me to buy food for them. I went with the maid. Ate dinner at Sun Si Doi. I wanted Summer Feels but no, we had to eat there, where we went last week, and the week before...

-_-

My brother didn't join us for dinner today, though, because he already ate. When I came back, I could hog the computer because my brother went out with my grandpa to Dhubar to eat roti canai. Wee~ :P

Class was okay, I guess. But seriously, Sean is accident-prone. Really. He injured himself yet again when he was going to the toilet. Banged his right hand's middle finger at the door and it was bruised.

Haiz...

Other than that, class was fine.

And apart from what I have mentioned, nothing else happened, so I shall sign off now. CIAO!!

HOLY CRAP!!

HOLY SHIT!! Can you believe it?!!

Jen-itor and Jasrel are back again!! Yeah, Jasrel was online just now so she told me that they're back together again -_-

Can't say I'm surprised, though, because both of them are SO compatible. Annoy me to the max :P Joking, joking. I think they have a lot in common, however. Though, I shall not mention the reasons because they'll probably think I'm insulting them.

No wait... :P

Still reading Rurouni Kenshin manga :) Love Kaoru and Kenshin but damn, I hate Yukishiro Tomoe, seriously. You know, I don't know why, but I've always hated anime character's ex-girlfriends. Even with Inuyasha, I hated Kikyo to the depths of hell -_-

No, actually, I think it's the girl that appears first in the anime/manga that I like. And the one that shows up abruptly and disrupts everything that I absolutely loathe. Even in the manga "High School Debut", I liked the heroine but I hated Yoh's ex-girlfriend. Bleghh...

Hmm... Guess I'm just weird.

"And you just realized."

Wait till the 1st of December, ass :P

My dad's expecting someone to come by our house. Oh, but Sean's not coming today. Mainly cause my dad's home. Haha. Don't come. It's much better that way :P It's a pity he can't cook the roti canai today -_- He said he'll cook some for us the day he sleeps over on the 6th of December before the camp, but -_-

THAT'S JUST TOO DAMN LONG!! I'm supposed to WAIT before I can eat?

You know, I've never been able to wait so long before being able to eat -_-

Ooh, gotta control my anger. My dad's guest is here and I can't just explode -_- 

Okay then. CIAO!!

ASA!!

Guess what time I slept yesterday? 1:45 a.m. Haha. I was up writing Flawless Hearts :) Started at 11 something I think -_- Then again, I think I slept even later, because when I went to bed, I think I played the "Love Like This" MV for about 5 times before listening to it for around two times and then falling asleep. 

Hey, even my sister said it's addictive. I don't really care if it's repetitive, I just love the song, love the steps and love Park Jung Min :P

Oh, and I know I've mentioned this before, but I just LOVE the dictionary :P

That aside, yesterday was okay, I guess. After I had Puan Roh's class, I had Geography and History at Sean's house. He was... annoying, as usual, and he kept dozing off to sleep halfway through class.

If he does that today at Theory class, I ain't helpin' him anymore -_-

Jen-itor was absent today, so it was only Sean and I today. My shoulder kept aching~ But class was okay. Even now, my shoulder is aching, though, and it's so painful!! Eeesh. 

Yeah... after class, we went home at 8:30p.m. Sean's dad sent us back and my brother straightaway went to the computer to chat with Sean. Tch. I went upstairs and started watching the television. Had cornflakes and fried sweet corn for dinner whilst watching TV. There wasn't anything nice, though. Disney was screening Mr. Magoo so I browsed the other channels.

Settled with Zorro on Channel 411 but it was finishing at 9 o'clock. After it ended, I watched Spiderman 3 on AXN. You know what I hate about watching movies on AXN? They have commercials. For Snowy's sake why don't you just play the whole friggin' movie.

Listening to "Love Like This" now. Obviously :P Downloaded DBSK's "Nothing Better" yesterday. I know my sister told me about it much earlier, but I never got around to downloading it. Love Jun Su and Yoo Chun's voice there. 

Nothing better than this~ :P

Yeah, nothing's better than my brother, dad and aunt *everyone except the maid and I* going out for lunch. Why I'm not going? Oh, that's cause right after I ate nasi lemak and Milo, my dad came down and said "Let's eat lunch!" 

-_-

As long as they don't tell me where they ate, it's fine. However, when my brother asked my dad, "Where are we going to eat?"

Guess what he said? I bet my sister knows.

"The place Lou loves to eat."

Duh. They always eat at my favourite places when I'm not going. If I was there, I'd run the bill sky high. I ain't denying it either.

Ooh, I just realized my playlist was put on repeat. That means "Love Like This" was playing about another 5 times before I finally changed the "repeat one" to "repeat current playlist". Haha.

I just love Park Jung Min's voice. I don't know. It's got that ring to it. Try listening to it like really, really properly and I think you'll know why I like it so much. Young Saeng's voice is more to... high-pitched, a little like Brian Joo's voice, but Brian sounds more "man" :P

Oh, and Hyung Joon's voice too. Damn, I love their voices :) I think Kyu Jong has better control over his voice than the rest, though. When I listened to their Live performances, his was the steadiest. 

Ah, I still love Jung Min :P

You know, I actually forgot Jung Min's name? I'm serious! I could remember everyone else but I forgot his name. I was trying to hard to recall it in the car on the way to the steamboat place the other day.

Finally, I remembered :) To think, I could remember Young Saeng, Hyun Joong, Hyung Joon and Kyu Jong but I couldn't remember Jung Min. Haha. Hilarious.

Alrighty then. I think I'll leave it here for now. CIAO!!